http://www.netalive.org/ An alternative to idiot-crowded web communities and spam-filled newsgroups. en-us Sat, 17 May 2013 00:50 GMT http://www.netalive.org/topics/47399 Hi folks, long time no see. But apparently, NAO is still in our hearts, as a few come here to read posts'n'stuff.. ?! Null suggested we'd do a PHP-based rewrite/relaunch thingy of NAO. Now, after a few years have gone by, we actually never got back to that topic. After a bit ho and fro I thought I'd like to indeed give NAO a good overhaul. Instead of re-inventing the wheel thou, I'd like to b ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47392 No one goes here anymore. That's ok. Things change. People move on. Platitudes. I'm 26. I have a degree in political science. I worked for government departments in co-op placements. I had a long-term girlfriend/live-in partner. I had a band that was good, kinda active, and somewhat known locally. I speak in jumbles now. Coherence is difficult for the troubled. Since I graduated, I've gradual ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47388 29th Dec. 2012: :2345hrs ...may still have typos in it... Arrival. It's the impending chaostrophy, upon us. I gave up drinking almost a year ago. Haven't missed it the majority of that time. Occasionally, like today, I have a slight pang in my gut for it. At I Heart Mexico, the Mexican restaraunt down the road, eating at the bar, with all the pretty bottle lit so nicely behind them, and of cou ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47387 NAO post 24 –26 Dec 2012 (Part one) 11August2011 Ginsterbusch email and asked "is Zen alive?" The short answer is yes. The long answer is that electronically I was dead, a few times over. This aging Gateway 400sd4 is my latest life. The last 3 or 4 units I had have been stolen, broken, or otherwise disabled. The story really should move back over a year ago, to Sept. 2011. I was evicted, and ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47383 A few weeks ago, about a month more or less, a relationship that I had for almost 30 years finally went the way of everything else that dies off. It had spent most of this year in very obvious decay. It just took a couple of mild jolts for me to see what was happening. On the heels of that came an interesting conversation on Thanksgiving with a member of my family. For as long as I can rem ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47382 I was suppose to get three days off. Then it was two, then it was one.... Its the season of being busy. I'm glad to have found this job. It will help get the bills flush even though its just for a few weeks. I can live through this. No matter what emotional ups or downs come, I can live through this. A whole lot has happened this year, most of it hard and most of it I couldn't figure out w ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47380 This year has been the hardest by far. In more ways than I can count. Tonight I wish I had someone I could call up or would call me. Outside of brief calls to family, there hasn't been anyone who has called her in almost a year.... On my birthday four family members called. It was late in the day when they called. Its the second year in a row that the person I'm with has forgotten my birthd ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47376 I'm waiting for a second shoe to drop. All year long I've been watching a relationship with someone I've known for almost 30 years crumble to dust. It's been getting more an more evident as the months pass that the handwriting is saying that this relationship is nothing. As the clarity of it has evolved I've been repeatedly reminded of what I tried to tell them a few years back, but they wer ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47375 I'm tired but I can't sleep. I've lost count of how many nights have been this way. It gets really old after so long and that so long is long,long, long down the road now. I am tired of feeling these emotions and so I wish they would just go cold or stop or something. I've had enough of them. They just serve to remind me of people who have expressed some kind of something and then just ab ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47372 The frying of summer has given way to the cold nights and heavy winds of autumn. Change is a constant, it's a conclusion that I've come to even though it was said long before I got here. I think my mother finally got the message that it's not so easy to find a job...she stopped asking in the first few seconds after hello. I'm grateful because it was getting to the point where I dreaded calling ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47364 For a while last night I felt reconnected to something and it felt really good. I've had too many days, weeks, mnonths where all I could feel was this extreme aloneness that I couldn't shake. It feels horrible when its there. During that time I am keenly aware of how many people in the world feel that way every day. It sticks to the skin and mind and everything else. Nothing makes it move eith ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47346 There is a place where the pieces become clear as to what the big picture is. This one I've been standing in for a long time now is pretty clear. It's a journey of solitude. I used to not mind being this alone, but for what ever reason, (I wish I knew why) the last three months have ripped me apart inside. I hate feeling this. I hate feeling abandoned. I hate the rejection...none of this used ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47314 It's been a while since I've been here, but it doesn't stop me from being grateful that it's here. It's the one place that I feel safe enough to open the doors and windows and write about how I really feel.... Since the year started things have just been plain in the dirt, for lack of a better description of where things are. I'm so at a loss as to know how to change this. Every day that I loo ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47298 Some days things just hit all wrong almost from the time ya wake up and don't stop until mercifully sleep shows up. On the nights it doesn't, well, it just doesn't show up. I've been struggling for a really long time with every day things and with the lack of silence which translates as lack of support or more simply put, the house is empty except for me. I know people are busy, they have lives ... http://www.netalive.org/topics/47286 Its Saturday morning and I have an interview at 9:30 this morning. Things have been so shitty that I don't care if it's good or bad. Bad would be just one more wall, good ..I don't know how I would take good, probably not so trusting. That's because for way too long every time good shows up it ends up being nothing so really it's just bad wearing a good costume. 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