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It's everywhere and I really don't have a clue as to what it all is. Except for the word change. Change brings stress, and from every thing that is happening, it's no wonder that people get so crabby and cranky for no apparent reason.

There is definately a shift in the works. I've been meditating again, and last night was one of the best sessions of meditations I have ever had.
I will do a meditation session again tonight because I need more of what I got last night, namly peace and a (...)

Here it is wensday night and life is doing it's thing.
There are alot of things I can't do anything about. Every time I try to figure out a soultion that works, I run into another wall.

The walls are getting to be so many that I'm exausted from trying to figure things out.
I have been struggling not to give in to the massive wall of depression that is trying to smother me.

I'm at a place where I need something really big to show up and help.
I'm a strong person. I've been through alot of (...)

I stand in awe tonight and have been in awe for a few days now, maybe longer, I'm not sure. And in honesty it doesn't matter, the time thing here, it doesn't matter.

I've been looking at fractiles. Hundreds of fractiles. Everyone that I have seen takes my breath away...so beautiful.
A forever thought in visual tangablity.

I want to take each one and swallow it so that it can take me over and make me like it, but then according to all the laws of the universe I am aready there. So are (...)