Douche's journal

So here it begins! I have just signed on to netalive, I'm excited to share and listen to what has to be said here.

I find it very hard to talk to people in person, even over the phone! I have so much I want to share with people about me and who I am, but if I cant do that then this appears to be the next best place.

Maybe I can say a bit about myself now, not for you to get bored about but to those that are interested to her about my views prehaps a background will help!

I'm 18 and I live in rainy England, I have 5 brothers and my parents are stil together...we all still live together! I want to desperatly move out and either live with my boyfriend or friends, but I have no money, a whole £15 to my name. I went to a local private primary school until I was 13 when I got moved to another loacl private school and I stayed there till I was 17. It was the worst place my parents could have sent me! The teachers and students are very snobby, I was bullied about the smallest thing, but mostly for just trying to find myself. I found myself going through many different stages at that school! I was a lesbian, a thief, a grunge, a loner and then once very popular! Until one day I just couldnt handle the work anymore... I'm so lost in my own lies that I dont know the true reason as to why I left... But my main excuse was that I wanted to work with children. I left that school at 17 and went to college! It was probably one of the best choices I have ever made, I like to think I found myself! However the work was so difficult and I got into a relationship with a teacher at my last school, we were together for 5 months. It was a difficult relationship mostly we had our good times...but sex was very difficult due to a reason that I will share anothr time... We broke up thankfully it took me a while to get out of what became a horrrible relationship on my part(if you know me for what ever underlying reason, I know that you'll recognise this story! please give me this new chance to talk about this and dont disgard me...you know who you are!)

Anyway once again I never worked and so I left the college about 5 months ago and found my myself very lost with no qualifications, no job but the best boyfriend that I truely love!

Lets see how it all turns out!