IllegalCheeser's journal

Ok Here's the thing to people who keep putting responses about no background info. There's this little thing called a tattletale at my school who will print this out and show it to teachers and try to get me in trouble if I am too specific. This is basically just a spot to release my feelings. If you're confused, go read someone else's.

But Anyways, today was really great. I realized a lot of things. Mostly how bad of a person I am. I've tried my best to lead a good Christian life but no matter what I do I feel like I'm not doing what I can. I really need a week off from life, you know? Just myself to think about why I suck so much and what I can do to solve it. But anyways To Mandi I wanted to give you this poem

My life I share with you today
For you are a major part
Of each new day as it does dawn
Because you have captured my heart.

Absence of hope you have given me that
Doubts you have chased away
The fear I had is now all gone
And peace I have found each day.

Yea, Well I only have 2 days of school this week so That's good. I'm so sick of high school. I'm going on Monday to see if I can graduate early. I'd go every day to summer school. I need a change of environment. College will do me so much good. Drama is so meh. I guess I'm not doing my best to prevent it, but if I'm quiet everyone always thinks I'm depressed or suicidial even if I want to just relax or read or something. Only person I would want to talk to is Mandi. Not you, random person. I know, I know you'll feel better about yourself if you try to comfort me for no reason but is it really out of the question for me to just be in a quiet mood? I sometimes wish I went back to my old nerd studying ways so people would ignore me again. Except Mandi. Thanks Again. Amo Te.

Today was pretty dang good. I slept till like 11ish then sold my Nintendo 64 (gah parents why did you sell it for 70) Went over to Mandi's and I wanted to go to Radio to bug robbie and mandi consented (poor sap he tried to get a nice date and people decide to barge in *cough cough*) So we drive over there and we both get the DEATH STARE FROM HADES from Rob's Mom, and the movie was already starting so we went down to Walmart to pick up some picture's and had a good time. I got Amanda some nice little bear plush. She sent me away and said she was doing something for a gift for me (yay i wonder what it is...) so I played Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles with a 4 year old for 20 mins or so that was pretty fun (CHOP!) Then we went around video stores finally finding Simpsons Christmas. I'm obssessed with Christmas now. I dunno just seeing all the decorations and stuff puts me in the mood. I wish Dad would put up Christmas lights. Well anyways then we had a relaxing time which made me very content and I came home to my faithful seat. So overall quite the good day. Amo Te Mandi./

Lesse today was pretty boring up till after school. Mr Trotter sang for us. That was surprising. I got in a crybaby mood for a little while after school for some unknown reason but my best friend helped make it better. We went to the mall to look for christmas gifts (LOOK ITS THE COUPLE GALEN) then to the hhs game (I ALWAYS SAY IT-DONT GO FOR THE 2 POINT CONVERSION BUT NO! gotta have the glory and sucks to be you HHS but then again I hit a grand slam off your "star" quarterback so you must not be anythign special. I really hope I get to see Mandi tomorrow, I had a lot of fun tonight and it meant alot and put me in a good mood even after I was in sucha crap mood. But I'll go for now, due to my massive sleep deprivation

Today was again pretty boring. You realize how mundane my life is in high school? I really need a change of environment (college and beyond, I'm so sick of the "high school" experience)) Amanda was at Western till 4th so I just sorta went to class and read or something and sat and read at lunch. I just realized what a big nerd I am. I have 2 books I'm reading right now (The Firm and A Time to Kill, both Grisham I highly recommend) and I have to read the Grapes of Wrath for high school. On our gerunds quiz today Mr Trotter had a sentence that was like "Dustin can not get past reading chapter seven in the Grapes of Wrath." I was like, "Yep." It's such a bad book. Never read it without being forced. Sigh, school ruins any cool book I could have ever read. Yea and now I'm doing my dull eBay job missing my girlfriend and learning about schaedenfreude (taking pleasure at another's misfortune) Amo Te Mandi. Au revoir journal thing.

So today was Wednesday and pretty uneventful. I BS'ed some essay on American Expansion in the 1840s and learned about Oedipus. Band we got some new music that I thought was pretty cool but Mandi told me it was only rated a 3. Oh well, I got to go see Mandi after school, went around the mall and went to Michael's while she got a pedicure. yay. well we watched Charlie Brown Thanksgiving at church. Gah. I just heard somethign that really makes me sad. Sigh. I just realized how mean I am to people. Well Im gonna go now im in a depressed mood. But I still amo te my best friend at the moment. Hi Mandi.

Wooo so this is a journal thing. Welcome to my brain. Isn't it weird how annoying people are sometimes? Like Rick the store manager of sprint. I really dislike that fellow and want to excoriate the skin below his eyes (go trotter for helping me learn that) Here is him "Well, I just..it's bad for our store to let you close your account, ergo, I will make up some corporate BS to not let you...AHHH KENYA DONT PULL MY STRINGS. OH LOOK THERE'S THE PHONE! WHAT A COINCIDENCE. SORRY IT TOOK A LUAU IN THE Cayman Islands even though we only had to ship it 5 miles. Such is our post office.

It worked out in the end though. Amo Te Mandi