POWF's journal

So I've decided to go to college. I thought I never would. But now as I sit here in front of my computer at work, it dawned on me. If I dont go do something, I'm going to be doing this for the rest of my life. I'm going to be like the other disenchanted 30/40/50 yr olds in my office. I can't have that. The only reason I am happy most of the time at work is because I'm young, and I almost feel important doing some of the things I do.

I need culture in my life. At my job I know if I stay here I will do great. I am able to move foward here and thats good, but I would be only moving foward doing the same general thing. I need change, I need challenges! Im getting bored!

Whats good is that I know I'll always have this job to lean on. I'm going to continue working throught getting a degree, so if I am unable to find a job in the feild I'm studying right away, at least I know I have a good paying job for the time being. I think the reason I did'nt go to college right after highschool was that I was afraid of being broke. I needed monetary security, but now that I have it I can relax and pursue a degree in which I'm intrested in.

Even if I don't get a job in the feild (by the way, my major is going to be anthropology, minor philosophy) I will still have gained the knowledge...I'm the kind of person that always needs to be learning something...I cannot remain stagnant in one place doing the same thing over and over again.

Nothing is set in stone yet...I'm going to shoot for fall semester just so I can save more money, become more secure...but I have this feeling inside me that just wants to jump up and do it! Hopefully this isnt a passing feeling and it stays with me :)

I dislike negative people. You can be negative sometimes, but I can't stand the type of person that EVERYTHING is so horrible, and EVERYTHING is such drama.

"I don't want to be at work", "I hate Monday's", "I dont want to answer the phones", I hate this, I hate that. Shut the hell up!

The secretary at work is like this. Every morning when I walk in I am greated with a frown and a complaint. It drives me insane! I say something positive, she negates it. Shes also the type of person that "knows everything".

"I have a bachelors in earth science, I know EVERYTHING about EVERYTHING"....Ok, then what are you doing working as a secretary in an insurance agency?

All this woman (shes 25) does is complain and complain...about anything you bring up in a converstation. She also thinks shes a "witch". Shes wears a pentagram to work and acts like shes all cool and mysterious. She tells the bosses, her co-workers and just about anyone who will listen that she is "white witch" and shes going to Salem this weekend.

Oh yea, did I mention that she can control the weather with her powers? If you so goddamn powerful, why dont you do a spell to make you life better, so you stop complaning. God, next thing I know she'll be complaining about why the sky is blue...then she will give a detailed explanation why it is blue (because she has a bachelors in earth science), like I care.

Luckily shes been getting laid latly (kinda sad that getting some is the basis to ones happiness, but i'll disregard that) so shes been kinda happy. The complaining is down to a minimun, she only complains about work related things now.

I stil hope she quits though, or my managers get freaked out that shes a "white witch" (cause you know, wiccans/pagans go around preaching their abilities to control wind) and they fire her...

Ok, I'm done venting, I better post this before she walks by and sees it :)

Yup, I bought a MAC. IMAC to be exact. Let me tell you, this thing is a peice of art. Turn it on, works prefectly...plug stuff in, stuff works right away. And its just so goddamn pretty...I wanna KISS it!

I am so content with this machine. Too bad I bought the IPOD a couple of months ago that runs on windows. Oh well, I'm sure theres a way around that.

Hey, does anyone know any good MP3 programs capatible w/Macs that isnt Limewire? Hmmm, time to go to bed now and think of all the great things I can say about my Mac to my co-workers tommorro morning.

Ta-Ta

Ugh. I have TMJ disorder (Temporomandibular Joint). Its a small joint located in front of the ear where the skull and lower jaw meet. Its a "ball and socket" joint w/a disc made of cartilidge that serves as a cushion between the parts of the joint.

Unfortunley, in my case, that disc slipped foward and my jaw came un-hooked. Painful? No. Uncomfortable? YES. I could barley close my mouth for a couple of days, only my canine teeth would touch. Getting the disc put back into place was VERY scary. Not that painful, just tons of pressure. I've had this since I was a kid, and it has only come out of place 2 times. Once 2 years ago (drug related, clenching and what not) and just recently because I chomped down wrong on a cruton.

So now I get to add 3 days of physical therapy to my busy schedule and I get to wear a retainer type thing in my mouth during work and at night. WOO HOO. Oh yea, and I'm on a mush diet indefinlety (no more bagels...FOREVER).

On the upside, I get to shed a couple of pounds, which I'm not sure is the best thing for me.

Anyway, if there are any other fellow NAOees that have TMJ Disorder and are doing something to help themselves, SPEAK UP! PLEASE!

Thanks for listening to me bitch and moan :)