RICANPUNKBABE's journal

I guess today was better than any other day. Mostly i'm just really sad, mostly for no reason at all and that's my problem. I always seem to be sad, no matter how good everything around me is, i just always find sadness. I think i'm bipolar, not that it scares me, i don't really care if i am, i just wish i could find a solution to my problem and understand what's wrong with me. I just wish i could be them always-happy good kids, i just can't be. I tell my friends how i feel and they don't seem to understand, i think they think i just want attention and it's soooo not that. I always just go to my room, i just want everyone to leave me alone forever!!!!!! Even when people talk to me it's like everyone annoys me. I always feel so terribly lonely to. I feel so empty inside, like there's something really big missing. I don't know what to do. I even tried to hurt myself, i never thought i would do anyting like that, i always thought, "no that's not the way" but sometimes i think it is, maybe it'll help a little. I dunno, i just gotta keep on feeling the same way and see where it leads me i guess. I hope tomorrow is a good day, and the day after even better.:(