Salvial_Ten's journal

I'm not sure how relivant this is to anything, but I've learned something about myself. I don't have faith. In anything, well, as far as the spiritual world is concerned. And I suppose that could be a less than productive thing, or maybe it's good?

Ohwell, I've also come out of that teary yet non-teary phase, which is good, I'm back to my usual analytical and nonemotional self. Which is more comforting than it sounds. And the change came with my post on the forums about the topic "God and Suffering", it allowed me to express part of a theory I'm forming on the very subject. When/if I actually decide to write the essay in full form I'll post a link to it in my journal for those who are interested (or you could just contact me and I'll send it to you).

Again I thank those who helped me be happier when I just lost myself.

Have you ever felt that no matter what you do or say, everyone is going to turn against you and there isn't anything you can do about it. I live in that state of mind most of the time, and I'm not sure how to get out of it. Usually I do not cry, nor do I feel the need to do so, but I swear lately it's all that I want to do. And there really isn't any sort of feeling attached to this need of shedding tears, just the act its self, in a state of near paralized numbness, just cry. I have no idea why I rant on about it. Not like it's a particularly important topic, nor will many of you care to hear it. Yet here I am, typing away.