Vladimir's journal

Ok,I've been reading up on what I missed(some of it at least), and you scared the living daylights out of me.

I know this is the place where conversations of a greater level are conducted, but I suddenly got to think about all the dificult stuff in life, from growing up to dying...sheesh!

Well, guess I was living too much of a carefree life. Back to harsh reality.

I was reading that thread about evolutin, and man... voshi314 gave me a head spin... http://www.netalive.org/topics/36297#36297

Anyway, I was asking for it.

Cheers!

I recently remembered how much I used to enjoy visiting NAO, how much NAO helped me in my life.

I came back, looked trough forums and saw a lot of familiar faces, and I was happy to see them, while I'm sad to see that many are missing. However, I do see a lot of new people, and as much as I resist it, change is inevitable, it's the only constant in life.

Just wanted to say hi to all of you, and I'll try hard to be here more often this time around.

I have a lot of reading to catch up to, so I'll ramble a bit more later.

Sorry for leaving like that without even saying bye...

[irc emote] /me feels sad

This post was edited by Vladimir on Jan 31, 2007.

Life is so unfair. When people treat you like a piece of shit you have to just keep smiling and keep on walking. If you say or God forbid do anything about it, the same people became victims of your profanity in the eyes of the observers, and you became a piece of shit. Catch-22.

Some of my friends (not the one mentioned in the previous journal entry) who I'm very found of are talking to me as I was the worst man of Earth to say everything I did. I know that breaking a habit of being walked on is hard and painful, but this is excruciating. It doesn't hurt when scumbags talk to me like that, but when a dear friend of yours tells you something like that, simply put, my soul hurts. My heart also. Feels like having a huge weight on my chest. For irony to be complete, after hearing a lot of uncalled for critics, I managed to insult the people I care for. I don't know what hurts more.

I'm afraid that this time my Nirvana-like state is destroyed. I feel tired, lost, lonely, and kind of sick. It won't take much more to cause me tears. I have to go to class early tomorrow, yet I don't think I'll get any sleep tonight.

This post was edited by Vladimir on Apr 12, 2005.

I only dare quate the title of one post by Eljefe :"Time to get mine!"

I couldnot identify my self more with that post. I am sick and tired of beeing everyones doormat! Never more.

Today I said quite a few things to the people I know, and they sure deserved it! NO ONE has the right to treat(or better said ignore) a human being like that! "Oh I forgot you were waiting for me at the oposite side of the city from your home!" And that is just the tip of the iceberg. After today, most of my "friends" will turn their back on me, and you know what, I coudn't care less. I didn't lose anything. That was just a wake up call. Be a man or be walked over your entire life. I chose the first one. I will not allowe some prick to make a fool out of me time and agian. Never more.

To finish this ramble, I say they will be at some point in time sorry for all the crap they trew at me, and not because I'll get back at them. I really won't as they are not worth my time.

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And still they couldn't effect my Nirvana-like state of mind I'm in. {Takes a deep breath} Ah, the beautiful smell of spring, I think I'm going to take a midnight walk around the nearby park and enjoy the freshly awaken nature.

This post was edited by Vladimir on Apr 08, 2005.

Ladys and gentleman,
In the South-eastern corner of the world, I present you with the man who dissapeared without a trace in December last yaer, the man who's rank used to be two orange stars, the man who can eat, and eat, and eat without gaining any weight, a man who's energy levels have never been higher!
I present you Vlad!

And it is good to be back!

P.S.
Did I miss anything important?

This post was edited by Vladimir on Apr 06, 2005.

Ahhh, the entire day yesterday, and very early today, if i was not an atheist I'd say: "OH MY GOD"! So many things at once, taking to all my freinds how was my recent vacation in greece( a very cheap one), unpacking only to find a lot of my friend's stuff in my bag(which he packed since I was on the athos mountin at the time and was late and we had to vacate the apartment), to an unsuspecting kiss, one cannot belive!
Everything else is just a regular suprize but the kiss, now there is one in a decade suprize! Yesterday, I met with my friend Ana and I was talking the her the same storie I told everyone, my vacation this, my vacation that, bla bla bla... Then somehow I got her to play a game of pool, and it was her first time. For a bigginer she played good. And we had fun and she left home.
Now to give you a little of our history... We met in January, on my best friend's birthday, and I was hitting on her but with no succes! We became friends, she daited some people, I got back with my ex(some of you may have heard the this part of the storie in chat or on forum) , and everything was good. We kept contact, we went out a few times(like friends), basicly we were good friends ... A month ago I broke up, and her, well, she likes short term relations, so she broke up with her latest 5 days ago.
Back to the main storie...
I had some plans for last night as did she. My fell into the water and I phoned her to find out she also doesn't have a thing to do. So, since I have a Frech style pool table(house version, light, a little smaller, with nets catching the balls), I ask her to come and play a few games. She came and we played a few. We had one drink, we sat on the sofa(big one) and we started tickling each other, and after that we were just lieing down, and I said how much I wanted to find out for myself what is the fealing to kiss her! A few moments later we were all over each other!
It was amazing, I fealt alive again after a very long time, alive and vital! And HAPPY! The deal was nobody finds out, and that we are still just friends. That was in 3 am!
I still don't belive myself what happend, and I am wondering are we still just friends?