harold_maude's journal

Last night when we got home, I found Annie dead on our bed.
She was laying there and I went to pick her up and she was cold.
My heart shattered at the loss of this precious kitten.

We tried so hard to help her survive, to grow and thrive, but unfortunately our best wasn't good enough.
I don't know how or what else we could have done.

So this is in her honor.

Tiny baby
crazy fur
eyes looking up
so big
so honest
paws on my face
as if to know
it's me.

Sitting on my shoulder
purring with your all
you loved me
in honesty
with all you were.

A fighter from the start
but it wasn't enough
to make a difference
to keep you alive.

I only knew you three months
your bones
always close to the surface
I could feel them
with every move.

It's your heart
I will miss the most
how you'd run
as fast as you could
and fly up my leg
purring hello.

Your sister calls
and your not there
maggie wanders
looking for you
me too.

Brave soul
pure heart
you found your way in
and stayed only a little while.
Your free now
and as you travel
where time and pain
can ever touch you again.
In your travels
where ever you go
please do something for me
when you see Daisy
say hello.

I miss you...

In memory of little Annie.
September 2005 - November 18, 2005

Ok...Here we go again

crosses fingers. Toes and closes eyes and presses post...

jumping up and down...it worked! yea! doing the happy dance that I figured out how to do it...

This post was edited by harold_maude on Nov 17, 2005.

Ok. I'm going to try this, and either it will come out fine, or there will be this empty space.
These are a few peices of my art. I figured since I've been saying I'm an artist, I should be able to back that up with something more than just words...so here goes. (stands back...pressing button...waiting for explosion)

Ok, so I click on immages and have no idea how to get the stuff from my documents to here...
Can someone help me do this?

I have been doing some research. Information and education are two of the best tools in knowing how to deal with a problem.

I've come to the conclusion that the new roommate is nothing more than an energy vampire.
I've looked at the past month and have come to this conclusion,
that this person is an energy vampire.
I reconized it a day or two after he moved in.
There was this instinctive reaction to not take anything from him, not touch any thing he brought into the house, or accept any gift from him.
Now I know why.

One of the roommates here is deathly ill now, and I believe it's two things going on, one is the job we both work at.
It's a major drain.
And this guy who moved in.

He is sucking life out of the people who live here.
Now that I know this, I have to figure out a way to get the other people here to understand what this guy is doing.

I believe that the roommate who is deathly ill would improve vastly if this other guy moved out.
He had the flu, and got better, only to have it return with a vengance a few days later and is having trouble getting over it.
After reading several things on Energy Vampirism, several of them from medical sites, as I read things clicked into place.
The lights went on all over.

We are having a house meeting. After the room mate who is sick is better.
I'm thinking about telling this guy he is an energy vampire.
And then proceed to hand him the information from the medical sites that I've gotten off the net.
One common thread in all the information was that it needs to be exposed.

Reading the definition helped to explain why after even just sitting next to the guy make me exausted.
It also explains why I get so adgiated after even brief encounters with this person, and it also explains the raised level of stress in the house since he moved in.
I keep stopping his attempts to control everything here.
And it's been a battle.

It explains why I can't stand this guy. I'm all about freedom and living the life each person is ment to, and finding the place of creativity inside.
And more than that I'm definately about wanting life and health.
This guy is about taking life from people.
Mainly their energy.

Now I know, and now it's time to do something.

A magpie flew by
and decited to nest
so it picked a target
to pester.

the inhabitants of the nest
were comfortable
and at peace
until this nasty beast decited
that it wanted to rule the nest.

give me sling shot
I'll shoot it down
and take it out
and hang it's bones up side a tree

That's what I'd love to do with this jerk that has moved in here.
It's going to be a couple of days in waiting, and then the whole house will gather, and we will discuss the common area.
I told the guy who brought him into this house I want the guy to move out.
He reminds me of this other roommate who caused problems when he moved in.

So we will see what we will see...

A single beam of light. A wave of energy moving without wavering tord a single point.
And then returning.

Without wavering. Complete focus. No detors, no sidetracking.
Just pure focus. This is where I want to be. And what I want my direction to be.
Completely focused.
And that is my goal. In doing what I need to do.