hells_angel's journal

I'm still scared about going and talking to my advisors tomorrow, or should I say later on today. Everything is ending so quickly and I don't like it. I mean on Tuesday I will be going home at 10 in the morning. Then for what only to come back up to school for about 2 and a half weeks then go home again for a week or two then get off again in about 6 weeks then be home again for only a matter of days then be at school again for 4 weeks then come home for 17 days before I have to go back to school in the fall!!

If I seem a little agitated by it all I am. I didn't want to mess up as badly as I did my first full semester up here but if I don't get myself out of the mess I got myself into I won't graduate from college. And that is a damn fact.

If I have to room with an incoming freshmen that is starting classes in the summer, or if I should get to know a few incoming freshmen over the summer I will tell them not to do what I did my frist full semester up here. I will tell them to go to tutoring, go to their classes, take the notes and pass the test, don't put your life on hold for some bitch who claims to be your friend but yet she can mess around with you when you move out on her.

Of course I am speaking from my own personal experience I just hope that I can help a freshman out and let them know that if they ever need someone to talk to I will listen to them. I just don't want people going on the path that I did. Next semester I have to cut the drama out of my life and I have to say that "hey just back off and leave me alone" to a number of people up here.

But of course it will be funny if some people try to talk to me after my ex-roommate leaves. She is not coming back next semester. It's ok though, all feelings I ever had for her as my friend died the day she sent Christain to come up and talk to me because she was too scared to talk to me her damn self.

I feel sick right now. I just ate dinner and blah!! This is not good. I got a few of my things packed and my mom took them back home.

Sick
Sick is what is used to describe
The un-normal
But in truth
It should be a word for
Unwell
Unwell is the overall feeling for being here
And eating this stuff they call food
Food is so nasty and gross
I throw up just thinking about it
Brown lettus,
Under cooked chicken,
Hard as a rock subs,
And greenish yellow eggs.
Sick
Sick doesn't even begin to what I feel here.

This post was edited by hells_angel on Aug 06, 2004.

Lately I have been really busy with finals and everything else. I have to go down and talk to my acidemic advisors tomorrow and see what they can do for me about scheduling for classes.

I have to take summer classes to make up for last fall. I am not going there. That is a long story about what happend then and I chose not to talk about it. But yes I am taking classes this summer and I have to schedule for them yet. I also have to find out where I am going to live for the summer.

I also have to talk to them about classes for the fall. It's a hair pulling experience. This is going to be lovely. My mom can't come down this morning to drop off that check to I can move on with things. I have to buy a stamp tomorrow and mail that thing out. Arggh.

It'll be okay after monday. I hope.

As you know today is the 20th of April. It is official now. Today is a stoners holiday. I know why they celebrate 420. If I smoked as much as my brothers do I would celebrate 420 too, but the fact is I don't. I go to college and I am working really hard to keep my grades up.

I don't have time for relationships and for stupid stuff. Although I could really use a natural relaxer right now. *hint hint*.

For me 420 is meerly a day for all stoners to get high and have a reason to celebrate. Being that I don't smoke or anything. I know people wonder how I know about the stoner holiday, well I have 2 brothers that get high and well they talk about it.

I also had a friend in high school who got high alot and talked about the significance of 420.

Stoners, alcoholics, and other people seem to have holidays, but what good is a holiday if you can not enjoy it the way that you want too???

What can I say? I finally realized something I didn't want to. I miss Dre. But on a serious note, I am almost broke and I need to call my mom. The Cassidy concert is next week. I am getting a ride up with Kayla and Liz. I don't know what I'm going to wear. It's so nerve racking sometimes. I'm trying to get a tan without burning myself and its just so hard for me because of the skin type that i have.

I wonder if I can get away with wearing my hat a nice pair of jeans and a white halter top or a black one. I don't want to wear a red one because red just seems to be the color i wear all the time.

If I wear black though that's just a chance for me to get burnt waiting to happen.

The other day when I was watching my niece we were in my mom's room. We were watching spongebob squarepants. I was laying on the bed. My niece started mimicing Britney Spears.

I think I should write Britney Spears a letter and tell her to check and see who her audience is. I don't appreciate the fact that my niece is picking up stuff that she does off of t.v.

I was talking to Heather last night. We were talking about how kids today seem like they have to grow up a lot faster than what they are suposed to. You see kids in designer clothes and dressing older than what they are.

I remember when I was a kid I used to wear the cute dresses with the flower prints on them or pants with flowers on them. I even used to wear jeans and cute kid shirts.

But lately when you walk around town and you see little kids they are wearing gap shirts and tommy jeans or girls wearing skirts and halter tops. I'm sorry but I think there is something wrong with this.

I went to my Aunts house for Easter and my cousin, I kid you know looked like she was 14 and she is only 11. She was wearing a pair of low rise jeans and a green tshirt. She had her hair straightend and cut, the way she got her hair cut made her look older.

I have an odd feeling that by the time my cousin is 14 she is going to be dressing like she is older and she is going to act it. If she doesn't watch herself she will end up pregnant. My cousin is already into guys. I wasn't interested in guys until I was 15. I didn't date until I was almost 16.

This post was edited by Jaz on Apr 18, 2004.