majic's journal

This poem was written on January 4th, 2004. It's about where I live and my sole connection to the real world being my internet connection. It tries to paint the picture that I'm always looking to get home to my wife and daughter but I simply cannot get home over the twisted pairs of the world wide web. I hope that this poem can somehow give you a glimpse of my current situation. Enjoy!

The Room In Which I Sit

a room filled with nothing is where I sit,
an expanse of space which cannot fit,
my soul, my ideas, my peace of mind,
I'm trapped within and driven blind,
I look around but cannot see,
any doors to open and set me free,
I have this line which connects me to,
a world of windows that I peer through,
an endless maze of twisted pairs,
an expanse of ever twisting stairs,
I look and look and always sought,
a way back home what a perfect thought,
a road to travel to get to you,
a sky above which is bright blue,
a sun that shines down on me,
and warms my skin and lets me be,
who I am, which makes me feel,
alive and open and something real,
but for now I'll sit right here,
and gaze through these windows and shed a tear,
that trickles slowly down my cheek,
to an endless journey that seems so bleak,
and one day soon I hope it'll be,
that a door is made present for my eyes to see,
that my legs will still have their strength,
to take that journey no matter the length,
to open the door and walk right out,
to look around and scream and shout,
the glorious day that I'll be free,
is the day that our eyes meet and begin to see...

This poem is dedicated to my family which are thousands of miles from me right now in the United States. Written 3 January 2004.

Fifteen Thousand Miles From

fifteen thousand miles from,
a life, a family and feelings of,
a place in which I'd rather be,
to live, to smile, to run free
a secret that's only real to me,
a chest of treasure waiting to be free,
and found and held and kept so close,
to be loved as freely spoken prose,
a gem, a ring a piece of gold,
a legend waiting to be told,
a single daisy growing in a field of grass,
as each moment seems to pass,
I carry my love and feelings near,
as closely guarded as a sheded tear,
I know I'll see them soon enough,
I know it's not easy, life is tough,
my love will remain and be true,
as cold chills the skin through and through.

This post was edited by majic on Jan 03, 2004.

http://www.cnn.com/2003/US/Northeast/02/26/wtc.finalist.ap

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/3333955.stm

Well lets see. This has got me royally pissed. Since the old World Trade Center has fallen down the brilliant people of America think we need one even taller, even bigger and even bolder than the first. Not only will this be a target for more terrorism but it will be a huge magnet for every islamic wacked out fundamentalist from New York City to Yemen. It will be a TARGET. It will be a Mecca for terrorism. It will be the holy grail. I'm sick and tired of this need to build bigger and taller buildings. What kind of a person is going to work in such a death trap? Especially after September 11, 2001. I am sick and tired of this mentality that we need to rebuild the WTC just to show the terrorists. Am I the only idiot in America that realizes that this will become a HUGE MAGNET for terrorism?

Sometimes my own country makes me wish I was never a citizen. Sometimes I just want to slap the Statue of Liberty and ask her what the fuck are your people thinking???

This post was edited by majic on Dec 22, 2003.

Oh My GOD we actually got him. Yes boys and girls we got Mr. Saddam Hussein. Being a long standing member of the US ARMY (7 years 4 months) I find this a glorious day indeed. Lets drink a toast to this fine glorious day.

I am in total shock and awe... How long before we get Mister Osama???

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....

Well I've been digging through my hard drive and look what I found.

I wrote this poem for my Wife on June 27, 1995. And it brings back such good memories that I just cannot comprehend. I hope you guys enjoy this. It shows a side of me that I've been trying to capture for a very long time. I just cannot seem to get that creative self back... If anyone can offer a majical potion let me know... =)

The Sun Never Sets

The Sun never sets in your beautiful green eyes,
Its brilliance lasts forever,
Like the flight of butterflies,
The touch of your hands fills me with emotion,
Sends chills through my bones of sweet, sweet devotion,
The warmth of your love is soothing to my mind,
For you're a rare gem of which I thought I'd never find,
You make my world a paradise by how you look at me,
Palm trees, white sands, rolling waves marvel in this reality,
Wild flowers grow with a curious fascination,
Exotic birds flights of fancy drowns your imagination,
Blue skies adorn the beauty of this place,
But nothings sweeter than the smile on your face,
Sends me flying when I'm to weak to walk,
Lets me sing when I'm to shy to talk,
All this is true as the feelings I have felt,
When you look at me, your eyes make me melt,
So when you're done reading this remember through & through,
That the Sun never sets but burns bright in you,
Through your emerald green sweet eyes,
The Sun shines and shines and shines...

If Microsoft ever did anything right its the fact that they have one of the best development environments around (in my opinion). I am just so excited by this that I cannot even sit still. I've been working with ASP.NET and having such a joy of a time. I cannot even believe how easy MS has made creating professional websites with ASP.NET.

I've used Perl and PHP to some extent but never had as much fun as I have had with C# and ASP.NET. I have finally found what I was looking for in a web development RAD IDE. I wanna concentrate on the content not coding and debugging and .NET has achieved that for me.

If anyone needs a recommendation for a Web development environment then I would gladly recommend .NET and Visual Studio. Its worth every penny. My church paid $600 which was $400 dollars off the $1000 price tag. I'd say they got one heck of a steal. Its given me a head start on creating the website they wanted. And I am so happy for it!!!

I can't wait until Mono is ready on Linux. I can't for the life of me figure out why anyone would hate .NET. Its a great platform and its made me a believer. I've ditched Java like a bad habit. I could never figure out J2EE anyway...

My online biography is at: http://pittmangrove.org/FrankHaleBio.aspx

The calendar is too cool for me!! And the fact that the days are linked to a database of blog entries just makes me wanna smile all day long. w00h00!!! =)

Anyway I'm not the worlds best programmer, this crap doesn't come to me like it does some people.

This post was edited by majic on Nov 28, 2003.