oxygenius's journal

sitzend in der dämmerung fragte er
sich klammernd an den faden seiner hoffnung

zynismus führt zu bitterkeit - NEIN!
bitterkeit führt zu zynismus

so sprach er zu sich selbst
brach es aus ihm heraus
wollte er doch niemals wieder

dieses wesen, welches nur hass und zerstörung
verbreitet sich angst und verzweiflung, zerrt am
verstand erlischt

knirschende, dräuende
finsternis, die alles
erstickt der faden der hoffnung noch im

... sein blick schweift ab
und so wollte er nie wieder
sein wie er einst sich
selbst beinah ein ende setzte.

fjwolf.

This post was edited by oxygenius on Dec 19, 2002.

i'm feeling kinda dead for 2 hours or so now .. dont know why,
but like totally exhausted and mentally down.

maybe it's just the 'flu, but also could be the season.
winter.

i'm feeling like and old, rusty man. bones are aching,
powerless muscles, hands that are hardly to use...

my hands are cold. eyes ache. or is it just because i like the
dark...?

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.
.

this is a nice mental state, a very nice one.
one, to let your depressing thoughts of a restless, lifeless
life flow out ...

there should BE a post type called 'Depressive'. there REALLY
should be. i'd be very, huh, greatful ..

and still: i have to work now - have to finalize an order i've
been working for so long. struggling, .. but.

This post was edited by oxygenius on Dec 19, 2002.

hi folks,

now that i finally got my winamp working again and tested it out with icecast, i'm going to do some broacasts during the week, too.

they will mainly feature mixed "dark" music, meaning anything from goth, metal, electronica till industrial. but there'll also be special themes...

everything you need to know i'll post here then, later...

and for users who are able to understand german at least a bit may check out the site of the show (Kreuz:Unter) at: http://www.goth2.de/kreuzunter/

have fun,
cu all, w0lf.

some up-to-date pictures of me (done with my cam):

"Normal"

Transformation ...

What ya lookin' at?!

... and then, there were the goths who pushed BACK!

This post was edited by oxygenius on Dec 15, 2002.

this might be of general interest, but on the other hand it's "just" advertisment, so i post it in my journal:

Time schedule:
On Monday, 16th of Decembre 2002, i gonna broadcast a special (gothic) show via Gothic Chat-FM, from 09:00 p.m. - open end, GMT+1, that hopefully will then happen every 2-3 weeks or so.

About the show:
The show itself is called Kreuz:Unter and does itself exist for more than a half year. For german users, there's a site online at: http://www.kreuzunter.tk - although english speaking users shoulnt have THAT much trouble to navigate on the pages, after it's all quite self-explainary ;)

About the sound:
I gonna play in first instance mainly gothic, darkwave, 80s and postpunk, and in second instance it'll be Industrial, Noise, Electro and Dark Ambient.

(Live) requests can be done at the same site at: "Infos" --> "CD-Liste" --> select the wanted album, then choose which song you want to have to be played :)

that's it.

This post was edited by oxygenius on Dec 15, 2002.

Now, this is a nice one ;)

sidenote:
.. is it just me or has that over-busted script now tried to convert URLS to proper english sentences?
some seconds before, the link was spelled like that:

Www.F2w.De/_nao/nice_mixture.Gif -- what a CRAP!
of COURSE it then DOESNT work!

another bug?

cu, w0lf.

This post was edited by oxygenius on Dec 14, 2002.