oxygenius's journal

very strange things are happening:

i'm at my mother's site,
and just about half an hour ago, there where sirens be heard coming from the one side, going to the other (meaning: police/ambulance/firefighter cars were coming in MASSES!) - i havent heard THAT much sirens/cars before - there's surely somewhat VERY huge ongoing ... maybe a big complex of houses on fire, or a mass carambolage - i dont like that thinking :-/

update: BECAUSE they where going in about the same direction as the school is located where my mother's working as a teacher ...

and then, the telephone rang when i was on toilet, for at least a minute - while nobody knows, just me, my mother and my grandma (was at her site yesterday, to get a lil nap), that i'm here ... :-/

cu, w0lf.

This post was edited by oxygenius on May 05, 2003.

hi,

.. back from the 'trip'. :)

thought, this weekend would be my 'former classmates meeting' at my oooold school, but was wrong - still, i met one friend of mine who was for a long time my very BEST friend.

some chatting, showing off who's got the longer schlong, ... *lol*

and then off to the next meeting: in the evening, i met some of my friends in the so-called 'Englischen Garten' (English Garden) in Munich, after an one-hour walk, at the Minopterus.
after chatting and drinking a bit, we decided to get to the Titanic City, to have some decent metal night.

and that's were the trouble began aka my neck got its aching pain from
- NEVER EVER mosh if you didnt do a WARM UP before :D

so, i'm now sitting there, trying to avoid my head falling full force forward onto the keyboard, partly by grabbing myself on the hair and holding it up (as like as Baron Munchhausen pulled himself out of the swamp :D)...

cu, w0lf.

This post was edited by oxygenius on May 05, 2003.

... sleepful day :)

no, really, the night went on and on and i just couldnt stop working on this piece of code :)

so finally i got a FULL WORKING gallery system, not using ANY database, NOT even a rudimentary text-based one, deriving the titles and all other stuff directly from the files ;)

currently, there's not much to be seen, but my 'exhibitions', as i call them, will grow ...

cu all, w0lf.

Yeah ...

Start at 3 a.M. Finally closing the pages at 10:50 ... Yep, i still got my bite ;)

... 600 Pages in 8 hours - after some months of abstinence this aint bad, is it? ;D

cu all, w0lf.

Ps: Sadly, there isnt the next german translation of the series in sight for now ... It'll surely is already released in english, but ... :-/

I am dying.

All those supid thoughts.
I am self-cented? Yes.
I am introverted? Yes.
And i am extroverted? Yes, that too, at both times.

I feel my brain numbing,
sinking deep into unimportantness.

Feeling my synapses
lower.

Shut down the process
of life.

I .... Dont need anything anymore.

I ..
I am dying.

And nobody is the fault.
It's just me.

I think i gonna die.

I think...
...no more.

i just want to leave it all behind
me standing there,
no thinking
no motion
anymore.

i gonna
SCREEEEEEEEEAM

the world
is shit.

and i do.

lifing in a world of agony and
naive, unrealistic dreams,
ideals are shuttered.

i am a fossil,
in a dying ...
world.

EXTINCTION!
extinction ...
...of any lifeform.

would be
a great.

day.

i am dying ... i am.

This post was edited by oxygenius on Apr 28, 2003.

Ok,

it's time to pose (and post) again ;)
also including some new views of my flat (the newly decorated walls, to be exact :D).

session #1

.. Taken on 19.04.2003, 9 P.M.:

Fear me ...

... Mortal souls!

*Muahahaha!*

Also, there's a nice animation to this available (ca. 164 Kb) ;)

and now for something complete different.

session #2

... Taken on 28.04.2003, 04:30 A.M.:

My nice silke bischoff/18 summers calendar ;)

gifts of mommy *shudder* .. But i've been getting used to it
(and i'm lazy, too), so i'll let 'em stick on my window ;)

... And finally: My 180x100 cm sized 100% original pirate flag
- decorating the wall above my bed sit :D

cu, w0lf.

This post was edited by oxygenius on Apr 28, 2003.