Reading POWF's journal

I can't stand being anxious. Its this burning feeling in all my muscles. I can't sit still, but I have nowhere to go. I feel like I want to just jump out of my seat and run somewhere, but I know whereever I wind up I'll just feel anxious to get somewhere else. The only time I feel calm is when I'm in transit, from one place to another.

Why do you think that is? Is it because as I'm in transit from one place to another I am anticipating that my destination will be better? But when I get to that one destination, after a couple of minutes I am anxious again.

Maybe its because life is too demanding. Too many deadlines. Too many people depending on you. I detest time.

Who made up these rules anyway. Who made up the whole 9 to 5. Do you know how many extra jobs there would be if the world was open all day? What if all colleges and schools were open all day and night. Alot more people would be educated. And banks! Thats something else that confuses me. On Long Island (I dont know about anywhere else in the world) most of them close at 3 on weekdays. Most people that work all day, or at school are unable to get to the banks, except for on weekends or Fridays. All I can say is THANK GOD for the ATM card.

And what is up with Daylight Savings time? I know it has to do with the suns position and what not, but why on earth do we need to lose an hour out of the day, or add an hour to the day? Who made this stuff up? The key word is MADE UP. Sure, there is scientific explanations backing up this made up information, but in the end, it is still made up!

But I geuss as humans we need this kind of foundation, because we are too intelligent not too have something to control our "society". But intelligence isn't always the best thing. Animals don't have our kind of rules, they just have their instincs. Hungry, they eat. Tired, they sleep.

Its like these rules of society are made to create anxiety. We give ourselves 8-12 hours out of a 24 hour day. It makes people absolutly nuts. Gotta do this, gotta do that. Then we produce drugs to put people on that cannot deal with it, to somewhat fix the problem we created to begin with.

Who knows. Maybe one day we will all transend into a higher plane where we can all co-exist in peace and bliss without the demands we all deal with in present time.

We should of brought a bag of rocks....

This post was edited by POWF on Apr 08, 2003.