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May 09, 2003 08:47 # 11903

come_undone *** is unsure about...

Friday comes again

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Hallo all.
Well it's another uneventful week in the life of moi. It's Friday again and everything always seems to be a bit of a blur on Friday. A lot of people go out tonight and watch movies and stuff like that but I stay at home being anti-social :).

It's not that I don't have friends, we just never seem to do anything and thus life seems quite monotomous.

Oh wait, I do have something on but you can hardly call it a social life. A youth bible study group. A bunch of terribly insecure, angst-ridden adolescents coming together to talk about God and how he is going to help us....sounds like fun, doesn't it? It never really seems to get anywhere. Although I do want to believe in God, and truly believe, I have no dedication or faith. I am also just not righteous enough and always feel unworthy of it all, especially when they talk about sin.

I know my current posts have not been very cheerful but I just haven't been feeling very cheerful lately. I always feel like I am trying to hide the unhappiness, sometimes I don't know why, but I feel as if I have lost something. I'm sure anyone reading this has no idea what I'm talking about and I'm just confusing everyone.

I'm sort of too tired to explain right now.....
Hope you had a good week. What do you do on Fridays?

May 09, 2003 11:08 # 11908

Jeanette *** replies...

Re: Friday comes again

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My jaw dropped as I was reading your post, as I noticed the freaky similarites between the way you're feeling and the way I'm feeling. Especially this:

Friday again and everything always seems to be a bit of a blur on Friday.

And this:

I always feel like I am trying to hide the unhappiness, sometimes I don't know why, but I feel as if I have lost something.

Ditto! I feel I should be looking forward to the weekend, but I don't. I feel like the energy and effort I put into things should mean something, but they don't.

What do you do on Fridays?

I get home from school and log on to NAO because I have the whole weekend to do homework. Then I spend too long on the net because I can't think of anything else better to do. Then I wander around, thinking about how dull my weekend is going to be because all my friends have other friends and are going to be spending their weekend with them. Banality!

Ugh, I hate it. But you have no idea how much your post has helped me. Can't explain it. Yes, I'm too tired to. But it feels good to know that I'm not the only one.

It seems that the only consolation I'd ever get is the "all teenagers go through that. It's part of growing up", but I can't stand that. No one feels what you're feeling like you feel what you're feeling. And it bugs me when people think they're having my experience and can help me. And when you have you're own experience and my experience and yet can still retain both our experiences as individual, it's well, it helps.

And about the youth bible study group? I hear you! But I think I'm lucky. I managed to get out of it on a permanant basis.

and always feel unworthy of it all, especially when they talk about sin.

Hmm...I think permanantly avoiding all talk about sin and righteousness has helped me aquire the skill of rejecting it. I'm quite good at it now. But it's hard when it's in your face regularly. I'm hoping it gets easier though.

Anyway, again, your post was really good.

Nette

Which world is Plato in?

May 09, 2003 12:53 # 11913

null shakes his head...

Re: Friday comes again

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It seems that the only consolation I'd ever get is the "all teenagers go through that. It's part of growing up", but I can't stand that. No one feels what you're feeling like you feel what you're feeling.

Nice sentence. :-)

Just to have added my .02. I think I sort of disagree with that. Of course everybody feels different, but there's a whole lot of situations where people feel very similar. Many teenagers show similar behavioral patterns, share the same fears, utter the same thoughts etc. Their exact feelings and what they make of it have to differ (they have different personalities after all), but the trend is always the same. For my part, when I say "I feel with you", it doesn't mean that I know each and every of your innermost thoughts, but that I've been in a similar situation and remember my own feelings, or that I can imagine the situation very well. I don't think I'm so wrong when I do this.

When life hands you a lemon, that's 40% of your RDA of vitamin C taken care of.

May 09, 2003 12:42 # 11912

null tells about...

Re: Friday comes again

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Well, this weekend is going to be rather packed for me. Today: shopping (need food), accompany Orchid who will write a story about a new car for the local newspaper (an Opel, erkh :-P ). Tomorrow: bring car to garage to change tyres and check brakes, eat lunch, operate movie theater for private show, help Orchid make a cake for Sunday. Sunday is mother's day, so my mother will come here and meet my potential parents-in-law.
(Relax? What's that? *g*) Luckily not all weekends are like this. :-)

I must say I love Fridays. It means that I don't have to go to work for the following two days. usually I'm too tired for serious party, so we watch a movie or go for a drink.

There were times when that was different tho. Having moved 7 (or 8?) times in my life, there were several times when I've lost all of my friends at once. Of course you stress how important it is to stay in touch, and efforts are made, but eventually the realization that the distance is too big a problem lets all the communication fade away. Going out with somebody in your neighborhood is easier than asking somebody living 1 or 2 car hours away. Plus I didn't go out much, so a usual weekend was like going somewhere during the day (swimming/skiing/shopping) and spending the rest of the weekend watching TV, reading or keeping my computer busy. This changed when I got to know a couple of people around where I live now (moved away and back here in the meantime). Also, ever since I've had a girlfriend it's impossible to spend the whole weekend in front of a screen. :-)

Well, here i go, blah blah blah. :-P Hope you're still awake! :-D

I am also just not righteous enough and always feel unworthy of it all, especially when they talk about sin.

Not trying to change or attack your religious beliefs, but how seriously is this sin thing taken? Because if you live the Bible by the letter, you're hardly allowed to step out of your house (except to go to work and church). On the other hand, if you do something you like and nobody gets hurt or something, what reasons are there to feel bad or guilty about it?

I know my current posts have not been very cheerful but I just haven't been feeling very cheerful lately.

That's okay. Just write about what you like. Nobody is happy all the time.

When life hands you a lemon, that's 40% of your RDA of vitamin C taken care of.

May 10, 2003 08:46 # 11944

MelMel *** laughs about...

Re: Friday comes again

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Not trying to change or attack your religious beliefs, but how seriously is this sin thing taken? Because if you live the Bible by the letter, you're hardly allowed to step out of your house (except to go to work and church). On the other hand, if you do something you like and nobody gets hurt or something, what reasons are there to feel bad or guilty about it?

Heh Heh Heh. oh yes...this a froward somebody sent me that I thought you might like...

Dr.Laura Schlessinger is a U.S. radio personality who dispenses advice to people who call in to her radio show. She is openly bigotted against gays, supporting her viewpoint by saying that homosexuality is an abomination according to Leviticus 18:22, and cannot be condoned under any circumstance. The following is an open letter to Dr. Laura penned by a U.S. resident, which was posted on the Internet.

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Dear Dr. Laura:
Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law. I have learned a great deal from your show, and try to share that knowledge with as many people as I can. When someone tries to defend the homosexual lifestyle, for example, I simply remind them that Leviticus 18:22 clearly states it to be an abomination. The bible may not be exactly a contemporary work but THAT tends to end the debate.

I do need some advice from you, however, regarding some of the other specific laws and how to follow them:
1.
When I burn a bull on the altar as a sacrifice, I know it creates a pleasing odour for the Lord - Lev.1:9. The problem is my neighbours. They claim the odour is not pleasing to them. Should I smite them?

2. I would like to sell my daughter into slavery, as sanctioned in Exodus 21:7. In this day and age, what do you think would be a fair price for her?

3. I know that I am allowed no contact with a woman while she is in her period of menstrual uncleanliness - Lev.15: 19-24. The problem is, how do I tell? I have tried asking, but most women take offence.

4. Lev. 25:44 states that I may indeed possess slaves, both male and female, provided they are purchased from neighbouring nations. A friend of mine claims that this applies to Mexicans, but not Canadians. Can you clarify? Why can't I own Canadians?

5. I have a neighbour who insists on working on the Sabbath. Exodus 35:2 clearly states he should be put to death. Am I morally obligated to kill him myself?

6. A friend of mine feels that even though eating shellfish is an abomination - Lev. 11:10, it is a lesser abomination than homosexuality. I don't agree. Can you settle this?

7. Lev. 21:20 states that I may not approach the altar of God if I have a defect in my sight. I have to admit that I wear reading glasses. Does my vision have to be 20/20, or is there some wiggle room here?

8. Most of my male friends get their hair trimmed, including the hair around their temples, even though this is expressly forbidden by Lev. 19:27. How should they die?

9. I know from Lev. 11:6-8 that touching the skin of a dead pig makes me unclean, but may I still play football if I wear gloves?

10. My uncle has a farm. He violates Lev. 19:19 by planting two different crops in the same field, as does his wife by wearing garments made of two different kinds of thread (cotton/polyester blend). He also tends to curse and blaspheme a lot. Is it really necessary that we go to all the trouble of getting the whole town together to stone them? - Lev.24:10-16. Couldn’t we just burn them to death at a private family affair like we do with people who sleep with their in-laws? (Lev. 20:14)?

I know you have studied these things extensively, so I am confident you can help. Thank you again for reminding us that God's word is eternal and unchanging.

Your devoted fan,
Jim

It's up to you how you interpret the bible. this was not ment to offend people in any way.

and, yes I know how you feel when you say that you want to believe, but you just can't. I want so much to believe in a God, and afterlife, and that someone died to save all of our souls, and that someone is there to protect me, but I just can't. there's to many holes in the story.

for me, I have decided to believe in some force out there which is our creator. that's the only decision I can make. I just want to believe in something

-Mel :)

Look at me! I'm a prostitute robot from the future!

May 10, 2003 16:31 # 11954

null agrees...

Re: Friday comes again

This is simply great. Whoever has written this, I love you! :-D

When life hands you a lemon, that's 40% of your RDA of vitamin C taken care of.

May 10, 2003 18:11 # 11961

Orchid *** throws in her two cents...

Re: Friday comes again

Ah, don't tell him!!! ;) :P

"Sie wollen nichts anderes. Sie wollen kämpfen! Sie sind Soldaten! Fucking Wahnsinnige!" - Noel G.

May 15, 2005 08:10 # 36004

jael *** replies...

Re: Friday comes again

Jeeze that really gave me a laugh =D

*insert something profound/witty/humorous here*

May 09, 2003 19:55 # 11926

Orchid *** replies...

It's Friday, I'm in love

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Weeell, to be honest I often feel the same. I wrote a post about this recently. Good thing on it is that I only miss something when I realize where just again hanging around in some all-the-same-place or when I (maybe once in a year) attend a great party and something keeps me from enjoy it.

When i stay at home on fridays, it's ok, we can watch something, cook, whatever. I don't see what I miss.

The truth also is: I don't have anyone to go to parties with. I've got no real clique and I've got noone who would accompany to things I'd like to go. One of my friends goes out very often but she likes places I don't really appreciate (r'n'b and that stuff).

There are also no possibilites for great parties or concerts here as far as you don't organize it yourself.

Good thing: I've got at least one friend who sometimes shares my weekend and there is my honey. :) But it wouldn't be bad to has some more friends :*(

I feel like I missed my time. No it's too late. Well, I'm redundant, better go on surfin' ;)

"Sie wollen nichts anderes. Sie wollen kämpfen! Sie sind Soldaten! Fucking Wahnsinnige!" - Noel G.

This post was edited by Orchid on May 09, 2003.


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