Reading POWF's journal

Why do people do things over and over again, and pretend that they don't. I don't like it when people say one thing, and secretly mean something else but are just too pussy to say it. And its so obvious to other people around that the things they say they want or are doing is just a bunch of bullshit.

I'm guilty of this too. I hate myself sometimes for being stuck in a cyclical pattern. Some patterns tend to repeat themselves quickly, some take years...but its still a pattern. But at least I admit it (sort of, to a bunch of people in a forum whom I don't even know). But I'm weak. I can rip myself out of a pattern and stay out, but the moment that whoever else was in that pattern tries to get it rolling again, I cave in. Its liked a warped form of peer pressure, but with feelings instead of tangible things.

Maybe because I am surrounded by weak people. I too am weak, and by being around other weak people just disables me more. In a perfect world I would surround myself by strong minded people and then learn from them, therefore becoming more strong myself. But I have'nt really found anyone yet.

So what is life all about? Learning to grow on your own, or learning from others? Its just fustrating to me. I should be able to learn from my mistakes, but I just keep on making them over and over again. I think though, being so young and all, that now would be the time to kick these old habits and patterns out of the door. Because the older you get, the harder it gets.

I'm sure I could learn from my mistakes if I just stopped making the same ones over and over again.

I don't know, I'm just confused and rambling, but hey, its'nt that what a journal is all about?

We should of brought a bag of rocks....

Why do people do things over and over again, and pretend that they don't. I don't like it when people say one thing, and secretly mean something else but are just too pussy to say it. And its so obvious to other people around that the things they say they want or are doing is just a bunch of bullshit.

at least we all don't rush around afterwards with false apologies we all know are fake and not meant.

Sometimes it's better not to say anything. But what do you do when you are obliged to say something? you don't want to hurt someone's feelings yet you have to say something.

it has nothing to do with being too "pussy" to say it. there is this wonderful thing called sensitivity. any person with it will not want to say the truth if it hurts someone they don't want hurt.

I suggest you think about what it is like for someone like this in a situation like that. you have obviously never been there before, and I hope you never are. I hope you never make anyone feel that bad about themselves so you can state proudly to the world that you are not a "pussy".

I wish you luck with your life.
-mel

Look at me! I'm a prostitute robot from the future!

This has nothing at all to do with anything happening on NAO. It was something personal going on in my REAL life. Maybe you should check in on yours sometime.

And why would I aplogise anyway? I meant every word I said in that post, and If I'm not mistaking, none of it even invovled you, so just let it go.

So can this stop now, or is every post I write going to get construed into something revolving around you and that situation?

We should of brought a bag of rocks....

This post was edited by POWF on Jun 06, 2003.