Reading Gaile's journal

Wow its been forever since i wrote. Highschools over and college will be starting soon. This has been a crazy few months. Never have i had to sit through so many changes. I've lost a few friends and gained few. People i wish will never leave have left. No one seems to care about keeping they're old friends only making new friends. I think i'm about to go crazy. I'll pray to all the gods in the world to please help my mom get well. Please let her get better. I wish all things were well again. I wish i was a kid again. Back then when saying goodbye never meant forever just till the next day. Goodbyes are the worse things to have to go through. But i'll say as many good byes as i have to if it will help my mom get better. I want her to feel good again. Please. I don't know what to do anymore. My bf thinks i have the solution to everything. I want every thing to stop for a while. If only i can put everything on pause. If only i could make miracles. Then i'll really have the solution to everything. I'll make my mama feel better again, and i'll make sure no one feels regret again because that is the worst feeling in the world. I'll make sure no one has to say good bye forever again. I'm so tired. If only i can put things on pause for just a lit' while things might be better. Man i'm such a dork. I feel bad. Please let my mom start feeling better, please let us get good news tomorrow at the doctors. I want her to get better.

.....lost in my wonderland......

This post was edited by Jaz on Aug 13, 2003.

I don't know what's wrong with you mom, but I do hope she gets better. And I wish her luck at the doctor.

Life with a pause button would be great, however, it isn't an option. The closest thing we have to pause is sleep and that time in our rooms (well for some folks anyway) that we're alone before we go to sleep and when we wake up in the morning. I strongly suggest using those times to think through what's going on and try and sort it out, maybe even try meditation to calm you.

You fail it.

Thank you for your support. Your kindness means alot to me, as does your advice. Thanks.

.....lost in my wonderland......

Anytime. ^_^

You fail it.