Reading hells_angel's journal

I am so drained right now, I haven't been sleeping well as of late and Dre calling me drunk at 3 in the morning didn't help. It's always the same thing with him. We'll talk then he goes to bed and then I sit up and think about what we talk about. He says he wants to be there for me and make me smile but why is it I always feel bad after we talk? Maybe that quiz I took was right about me, the more I like someone the worse I feel. I need to go back to being apathetic, cuz caring drains the hell out of you.

I'm drained from school, home and my friends. Sometimes I just wonder if there isnt something more to my life that I don't know, like maybe I was meant for something else.

It is for this reason alone that I am considering taking next semester off just so I can come out of this stage.

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I am tryin to be
Everything you want me to be
But sometimes it's just to hard
I'm not perfect
Or haven't you realized that by now

This is my confession
This is my story

I feel so much
It's like I don't feel anything at all,
You want me to walk through the door with you,
But you aren't willing to wait for me,
To open up to you,
And tell you how I feel,
But you dont think I'm being real

This is my confession
This is my story

I became so drained
From caring about everyone
And everything
But myself.

It's not easy to be
I have to set the example
I'm the first one there
Always the last to leave
I have to take care of everything

I have to be
Flexible
Yet firm
I have to
Be what everybody wants me to be

I get to watch my dreams die
And watch my hope sink
While I'm stuck in this cage
Longing to be free
But I can't be free

Take your time don't live to fast troubles will come and they will pass