Reading hells_angel's journal

I noticed something today, the dumb little girls that are sl*ts are getting younger and younger, pretty soon they are going to be as young as 6 years old saying "b*tch get away from my boy" this doesn't leave much hope for future generations, namely by the time I have kids I am going to have work really hard to instill values and morals in my kids. When you have kids you are going to have to be an involved parent, because things seem to be happening to kids a lot sooner than what they did to us. Kids will be either be smoking weed or getting into trouble if you as a parent lose them at an early age. It is this fact alone that scares me about having kids. I will not be having kids for a long, long time.

I am only 19 now I am not rushing to sleep with some guy, get preganant and then have to drop out of college and get a job at Mc Donalds and flip burgers or take orders from old people.

I had an interesting conversation with Tosha last night. I was telling her about how my little brother, Danny, was experimenting with weed. Tosha told me her little brother is up until midnight or so on the phone with some girls. She says he's become quite the little pimp. Tosha's brother is 12. Tosha said when she ws 12 she was still fighting boys. I told Tosha when I was 12 I was taking care of things at home and I didn't concern myself with boys because I didn't have time for them.

It's just funny how things change in a matter of 7 almost 8 years. If it is really like this now, what is it going to be like in 10 years from now when I'm 29 going on 30. I think it is safe to say that when my generation gets ready to settle down and have kids they are going to have talk to their kids at a young age and tell them what sex is, and what safer sex is, they are also going to have to explain to their kids the world works and how to maintain your morals and values while most of their friends give them up at an early age to be concidered cool. I had a friend who was 16 going on 17 when she had her daughter, and all I kept on thinking about was are you going to raise a kid and take care of your sisters at the same time.

Having kids is a full time responsibility. It can either make your life happy or ruin your life if you are not careful.

Take your time don't live to fast troubles will come and they will pass

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You know what else is sad, you see parents dressing their 5 year old kids in clothes that teenagers wear. It's almost like the child's parents are forcing them to grow up quickly and making them worry about what they wear. I think that kids should be able to have their childhood and be free. I noticed this where I'm from and where I'm going to school. I see little girls as young as 6 years old wearing make up and dressing older than what they are.

What scars me is I have a neice that is 6 years old and whenever she comes over she always wants me to put a little bit of make up on her. She also wants me to do her hair too. Her hair I don't mind doing because that is normal. But when make up comes into play you have to really ask is society pushing kids to grow up fast so they can be exposed to everything so the media and bitches like Britney Spears can sell sex to their audience and it gets justified by society.

I just get so scared sometimes and I just hope I am not putting any pressure on my niece to grow up. Cuz she wants me to put make up on her. I put just a little bit on her, I stick with natural looking colors for my neice. I go with the light pinks and pastel colors because she has bright blue eyes and pastel colors bring her eyes out the most. I don't cake it on her and make her look like she is 13, thats just going to far.

And sort of on a side note, it is very sad the way children today are forced to grow up far too quickly, far too often i see ten year olds in fashionable clothes, wearing make up, jewellery, swearing etc, and it really is the saddest thing.

It's sad that I see little girls wearing clothes that would look more appretiet on someone who is 16. I live in a small town, kids are suposed to wear jeans and tshirts or sweat pants and a sweatshirts.

Take your time don't live to fast troubles will come and they will pass

I got a phone call from my friend Tara last night. We were talking about people in high school that we knew who got pregant. Of those people who got pregnant only two of them are in the process of finishing high school. Jessica just had her baby not to long ago. I just think back to last year when Jessy was bragging about her sex life, all I kept on thinking about when she would tell me about her sex life, was how it was all going to catch up with her someday when she least expected it. I didn't know then that I would be right.

I remember something that my friend Karen told me once at dinner one night, last semester I believe. "When I was in 7th grade my best friend got her period and she had sex well she got pregnant. You have to imagine that when I was in 7th grade it was 1990 and I lived in a small town and my parents were really conservative, we didn't talk about sex. I didn't find out about my period until I was 15."

Back in the day, getting pregnant before you were married was not really heard of. I remember back in the early 1950's they sent you away for getting pregnant. You would go away for 9 months and come back, you were forced to give your child up for adoption back then for the sake of family values and no embarrassment upon the family.

I remember being a little girl and not being exposed to sex as a kid, but now it's everywhere. Pop stars like Britney Spears, Christina Agularia are selling sex to their 9 year old audience, kids now-a-days are being exposed to sex and it is really hard for parents to explain to their kids what sex is. Kids are getting more courious now than when I was a kid. Kids now are just exposed to so much more than when I was a kid, if it is really this bad now what is it going to be like in 10 or so years from now?

You have kids as young as 11 years old having babies, and I keep on thinking to myself how am I going to keep my niece on a straight path. I love my niece to death she is only 6 now she will be 7 soon and she thinks of me as her mother, because her mother walked out on her when she was only 3 or 4 years old. I teach my niece a little bit about being a girl. I still play dolls with her and draw with her, I even read to her. I want her to be a little girl for a while, I mean I really want her to experience child hood. I don't want her to feel like she has to grow up quickly because I am growing up too. I mean I was always mature for my age because I was so used to taking care of things when my mother wasn't around. I don't wish that on no one. I love my niece and nephew like they were my own. It scares me sometimes, I'll be reading to my niece and she will come from out of no where and say I love you mom. It scares me because technically I am old enough to be her mother, I mean I had my first period when I was 12, and my niece wasn't born until I was 13.

Don't let me forget about those kids that go on talk shows and say that they want to have babies just so they will have somebody who will love them. It's really sad. I had my experience raising my nephew Timmy for a month when he was 9 months old. Every night I would wake up with him, change his diaper when he cried, get him a bottle, rock him back to sleep. By the time I got back to sleep it would be 8 in the morning during the summer. I would wake up make breakfast, fix him a bottle give him a bath, then leave him to his parents to take care of so I could go back to sleep for a few hours. And I am serious when I say :

Having kids is a full time responsibility. It can either make your life happy or ruin your life if you are not careful.

For that month that my nephew, my step brother, and his wife lived with us I didn't sleep hardly. I was only 11 taking care of a baby, it's not fun. It's not fall to just be falling asleep at 1 am. and waking up with a baby at 1:30 because they need their diaper changed. I can tell you all about it.

Take your time don't live to fast troubles will come and they will pass

This post was edited by hells_angel on Mar 24, 2004.