Reading baexcell's journal

****Disclaimer: This Post is a direct copy of something I wrote the other day while bored at work, I am not editing it in anyway from the original, so I apologize if by chance i sound like a total @$$hole****

Depository of Knowledge? That is what some would call me. Others just call me nerd, geek, dweeb, and the like. To me, tey all mean the same thing: you are different and we don't like you. I have learned to accept this as my fate and seek out others of my kind as they are less likely to shun me away.
So far, my search has yielded few results and I am content with this. Those I have found are popel I feel closely connected to despite having never met them.

Why is it that after living here for over a year, I know no one outside of work or family? Is my life that much that of a hermit? Am I just antisocial or is there something deeper which I am unable to see? The answers to these questions do I seek as well as what my place is in this world. Why the need to start a church ot the help those less fortunate? What is it that keeps me balanced and allows me to see all sides of any dispute, even if I have a vested interest? I don't know any of this, as this is my greates weakness, an inability to advise myself in matters I can answer easily for anyone else.