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I am starting to feel depressed because I have a wierd quirk. It is my nature to love everybody, I can't help it; I truly can't stay mad at anybody. But when I think of all the love I give some people and how they just end up bashing me with hate I am not mad at them, I just get this weird hollow feeling. Like what I have been doing for people doesn't matter. Then I end up meeting more people, lovinh more people, and the circle continues. I have no idea why I give this UNCONDITIONAL love to every person that I meet. I just hurts when I give this gift to people and they throw it in my face for no reson. Please explain this to me, I need someone to help.

Only the free wish to find their destiny, those who are jailed have found it.

Well, if these people can't seem to understand that you want to be friends, then you shouldn't bother with them. You feel depressed because these people seem to hate you, even though all you try to do is love them. They are lowering your self-esteem, most likely because they don't have enough of theirs, and putting down other people makes them feel big. But that's not true. They think they're all cool and strong for hateing you, but if you could walk away, just once, then you will be the strongest person there. Show that these people aren't getting to you.

Also, try to get a good group of friends. Explain to them your situation. It will probably be akward or hard, but trust me, no matter what you think, they'll understand. You need someone to believe in you, and to stand behind you when this happens. Going to this forum was a good first step- we can give you the support you need, but only to an extent. We can't physically be there, because we only exist in your life in a box.

I believe that you can be the stronger person and walk away. Don't waste your time on these people.

Also, don't think your weird because you love everyone. That is a serious rare gift. I know someone in my school like that, and she doesn't let it bother her. She knows that she doesn't need her self-esteem bopped around by some jerks who don't have any.

Hope this helped, but I'm not a trained psychiatrist, so I apologize if I gave you bad advice. Good luck!!

~Stand up for what is right, even if you stand alone.

Althow it's been a long time since iv'e posted this i decided that I should respond. Since letting my friends know (your advise, you were right, I felt stupid) the girl part of my group{smiles devilishly} has warmed up to me. The guy (yes thats right, in my group the girls outnuber us 3-1, not bad odds) Accepts it. So i would like to thank you, although you may not feel you did much, you made a world of differnce to me.

Thank you and travle with my love,
Jazz

Only the free wish to find their destiny, those who are jailed have found it.