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Aug 11, 2004 15:18 # 25328

lostNdelerious *** wants to note...

No good very bad day!

Today is a bad day. I woke up late and no one was home. I couldn't get ahold of anyone. I'm in a horrible mood and my just recently peirced lip is infected! I'ts nasty.
I went to the mall with Itzai yesterday. We had alot of fun shopping and acting stupid. I missed her so much while she was in Bowling Green. Imagine how I'm gonna feel this year when I don't ever see her. I'm going to a new school this year. So now who is going to laugh at how retarded I am and listen to my rejected problems? Who is gonna keep me from being bored at school? Who is gonna write wierd notes to me and scrap book? Who am I going to talk about fashion with? I'm going to have to make new friends. My new school is humoungous compared to the old one. I'm so scared. They actually have cliques. Their are so many stuck up type girls there who take one look at me and cringe. I'm not ugly or anything. I consider myself to be slightly pretty. I just dress like a weirdo. I'm not used to it because at clearview it wasn't like that at all. Everyone was pretty much cool with everyone except for the occasional you took my boyfriend drama. But I mean no one really made fun of each other. Well they did make fun of the special kids sometimes. That did make me pretty angry but I mean what can I do? I'm not into fighting. I guess I could mess someone up if I needed to but I really prefer not to. I'm just afraid because I dress really different. People at my old school got used to me and stopped saying things after around two years. I'm not used to having to take it anymore and I don't wanna have to start all over!

when living and breathing is still overated in the eyes of the seeking.

This post was edited by lostNdelerious on Aug 11, 2004.

Aug 14, 2004 17:37 # 25446

RICANPUNKBABE * smiles...

Re: No good very bad day!

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I had a lot of fun at the mall with you also! I missed you alot and I still do. I think of how this new year at school is going to be like without you. I try not to think of it too much because I know it'll only make me sad. I used to tell you everything, well I still do but I mean now this year Who am I going to talk to when people upset me and when I get all depressed and when I have problems with my mom at home and how I'm going to Puerto Rico and how Greg is such an asshole?... The list goes on and on but you get the point. It makes me extremely sad to think of it. Honeslty, and I'm not only saying this to make you happy... I mean this, of all the friends I've had, the only one who *TRULY* understands me and the only one who is not selfish at all and honestly wants to help me not only because they are supposed to but because they really want to make me feel better is *YOU*! You're the only one I can walk up to and tell you exactly how I feel because I know you will understand me and listen to me without judging me. I don't mean to remind you of this or make you mad or anything but I'm sure you remember the time when we were both going through "*THAT*" phase-* and we tried what we tried and it did not work but my point is, it takes two extremely good friends to go through that and have it not work and still remain the best of friends, don't you think? I don't think it's something easy to go through specially when it doesn't work because you get to scared that it would ruin your friendship. At least I did, I was very afraid but it surprised me to see that kind of friends we were. You are truly a special person to me and even if we sometimes don't agree in some things, you know I understand you and I know you understand me. I just wanted to let you know that even if I make new friends, You will always be my "one-n-only" ;) ok, i will let you go now but I hope you understand- Marry Poppins- ;)Talk to you later!

Let the best of your past be the worst of your future ***

Aug 14, 2004 21:45 # 25461

lostNdelerious *** replies...

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Aww sniffles! I love you so much girlie :) Seriously that is really sweet. That's exactly how I feel but sometimes I have a hard time showing it to my friends. Your so right we have made it through alot of things most people wouldn't have made it through. Alot of my friends listen but they don't REALLY listen. You know what I mean? Your the only one who REALLY listens and understands (thats on this earth). I don't know what I'm gonna do with out you. But you know you can call me anytime just to talk and tell me whats going on. If your sad or happy or just whatever. Also you can still write me notes about the things that are going on. I'll still listen to you I just won't be able to read it at school. You can email it to me or write it to me on here if its not to personal. You could even send me letters in the mail if you want! I hope that we stay bestfriends for a really long time. Who knows maybe we'll be bestfriends until we're wrinkly old ladies. Call me soon and let me know when you want to hang out again. I'd like to before school starts and definately I want you to go to homecoming at clearview with me.

when living and breathing is still overated in the eyes of the seeking.

Aug 16, 2004 21:07 # 25524

RICANPUNKBABE * smiles...

Re: No good very bad day!

;) I'm glad you understand how I feel. It'd be great if we remained friends until we can't even walk anymore!lol..., we probably will. Whereever I go, for college or anything, I will always keep in touch. I'll call you this week ok? I wanna hang out again too. ttyl*** ;)

Let the best of your past be the worst of your future ***


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