Reading kaizley's journal

The vibes are coming back. The urge to hurt. Not kill, just hurt badly. The dog won't stop barking. I want to throw myself. Not off a building, or a cliff. Just... through some sort of portal so I can get out of here. So I can be in another world, with new people, things, situations.

I need that spell that got rid of the bad vibes before. I just want to be over. Finished. Gone. Then the fuckers wouldn't have to care about me.

What is with that? Why is everyone being so bitchy to me? It's not like I killed anyone. It's not like I'm going to. I mean, When I get a little bitchy at them, they get all huffy about it. But when they get bitchy at me... I soak it up. Why do I put up with it?

I shouldn't. I should get all huffy at them and leave them. It's not fair. I hate it! I hate it SOOO MUCH! I need more confidence. I need the courage to get up and walk away. But where do I get that from?

I hate it how they think that I'm soo stupid that they use "code" around me and think I won't get it. I'm not that stupid and juvenile.

Those fuckers...

"I'm free to say whatever I, whatever I like if it's wrong or right, it's alright."