Reading Martin's journal

Definitions:
forever - 2 years, one month and 23 days
eternity - lasts until just anyone comes along
always - unless noone else whispers about love
destiny - subject to change within 10 days
relationship - use it, throw it
I guess we're facing minor cultural misunderstandings here.

You've found me and you dumped me.
You've shown me home and bounced me.
You've mended my heart and burnt it to ashes.
You've married me and chickened out.
You've made me love you and I do.
What was the meaning of veilen again?

In the end you've done your very best to make yourself what you once were most scared of: just another girl in my life. And still, with all your mindless shit, you didn't quite succeed. Only... how will I ever get my answers, since you dont talk to me anymore?

Dil la' leyah ik bayperva de naal.

How many times can a man lose everything in life and stand up again? What for? I'm so tired. I never expected to arrive at my destination anymore. But finally it came to me, without warning and without looking for it. All of a sudden things became real, which I always denied to be existent, just because I never had it and didn't have the guts to admit I'm longing for it as well. And I was all so hesitant and cautious to allow it to grow in importance to me at all. But everything worth searching for came just to me and introduced itself as my personal purpose of living. It doesn't matter you weren't strong enough to stay, at least I do know you existed. I'm so thankful for that and everything else you've taught me and made me believe in, because sometimes, in moments like this, I can feel there is some deep peace in me below all the dreadful pain. It could have made the most wonderful life imaginable, you were my wife, my lover and my best friend, all in one person, but it wasn't enough for you, the Civil Service Officer in you was never meant to stay. Its not your fault, love, I've got nothing to forgive. It was the best time of my life, and noone can take that away from me again ever. May you find the life and happiness you're so hungry for and cannot find in me, I release you from all your promises, you're free. If you'll ever need a friend, gimme a call. My love and thoughts will always(© kk) be with you. Farewell.

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Oh shit, I'm so sorry to hear that.
No, really.
It's most likely not gonna help you, but if I can do anything for you just let me know.

"God is dead." - Nietzsche, 1882 "Nietzsche is dead." - God, 1900