Reading jbooker's journal

So, once again I face a dilemma. That dilemma being what to do with the (various) website(s) i have. I mean, surely it shouldn't be that difficult? Just get a site design, fill it with content, stick a few google ads out there, and BAM instant success, right?

Wrong. Oh, I was oh so wrong. After 18 months online, Booker's World of Retro Gaming finally got its first order. I was immensly happy at that, but extremely angry at myself at the same time.

If you (assuming there's anyone reading this drivel) look at the site, you'll see that it's pretty poorly designed. Its ugly, basic and lacks any kind of interesting pizzazz. And so, since that one went online 18 months ago, I've spent 12 months of that recoding, redesigning, etc, over and over again, and found myself with the same dilemma I'm having now - I'm artistically retarded.

What I mean is, the entire creative part of my brain seems to buzz with ideas, which if I close my eyes, I can just glimpse a corner of one, or a shadow of the other. The problem is, when i reach inside to grab one out, they all hide in the corner and snigger at my ineptitude.

Could it be that my websites will never get off the ground because of my inability to put on (virtual) paper what I see in my minds' eye? Is my lack of creativity going to continue to stop me becoming a success in life?

And worst of all, will I continue to carry my ideas to a semi-conclusion, only to be stuck with this dilemma when someone turns up and proves to me that looks aren't necessarily everything?

While I'll be ever grateful to this man for becoming bookers-world's first customer, I also hate him to death for turning my mind back into this whirling vortex of confusion and dizziness.

And so, the question is this - is it possible to teach an (artistically retarded) old dog new tricks, or will all my projects just be money (spent) for old rope?

Answers on a postcard....

-J

They will never forget you 'til somebody new comes along... - The Eagles, "New Kid in Town"

This post was edited by jbooker on Oct 21, 2004.