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This is my 3rd Letter to Lewis Edward Turner. He has not replied to my 2nd letter yet.

11/24/04

Lewis,
Today is Wensday November 24th. One day away from being Thanksgiving. It is a day when we celebrate and meditate on all that we have. A day set aside to give thanks for all things great and small. Our plans are the same every year. We usually get together with my grandmothers side of the family. Normally it is a big gathering. It usually consist of about 50 aunts, uncles, grandparents, brothers, sisters, and a few even bring thier friends, in-laws, girlfriends, or boyfriends. We have it at one of my grandmas brothers house. I am not good on estimating acres. But, I would say they have about 15 to 20 acres. They have it set up real neat and thier houses are huge. My aunt and uncles children all live on the land. They have it set up kinda like a subdivision. There is a long road going down the middle shaped like a snake. It windes passsed all of the houses. I say it like a million houses are on the land. Actually, there are only 4 houses on the road, and they are all spaced out very well. Dylan has lots of fun when we go up there. It is all pretty much woods except for the yards and road. It usually turns up where there are more kids than adults. Most of the younger kids are Dylans age. When we come home we are usually all tierd and Dylan is covered from head to toe in red mud. There is a big ole hill about 15 feet tall that the kids like to slide down. This year will be a little differant though. Normally we leave my uncles and go to Scotts parents to eat Thanksgiving. His sister lives in North Carolina. So, that is where Scott's parents choose to go this year. I assume we will probably get together with them after Monday.

~ A whole week of eating good. ~

The rain has just been terrible all week. It has rained nonstop for days. Water somehow got in and flooded the toy room. So, we rented a carpet shampooer to suck up the water. I guess in a way the flooding was sorta a blessing. When we moved in we had white carpet. As time has gone by it has turned sort of a black color. So, Tuesday was spent shampooing the living room, dinning room, toy room, and Dylans room. It was a rush job so, we now have a moderatly pretty brownish rug.

What use to be our Computer room is now our dinning room. I set it up all pretty like. I hung some nice lil food pictures in there. We decided we needed togetherness that it would be good for us. You know at dinner where you all sit at the table. For us that is not normal. Something we only see on T.V. Our family tends to eat where ever. In the living room, on the floor, in the bed room, at the computer desk, and if your Dylan on the potty (eww). All of the sudden when we think we are normal. The roof starts leaking in the dinning room. It was a yucky, mess. The water was coming in fast. I actually had buckets catchin the drips of water. Whatever holds the paint on the celing turned to all slimey and chipped and broke off to the floor. Maybe it was sheetrock nailed to the wood.
~I dunno.~
This house is just old, and its fallin apart. We have lived here for four years and have been renting this thing. Scott and I are considering moving again. Probably in Febuary or so. When we moved in the rent was $640.00 a month due on the 5th. Two months ago she sends a note stating rent is now $695.00 a month and is due no later than the 1st. If we pay it any later than the 1st we have to pay her $770.00. If we tell them about all the problems we are having. They will ceratinly have us out in a month anyway. Since Christmas is in 4 weeks we had better wait to tell her.

I had a pretty good day last Monday. The sun was shinning the birds were singing ~ha ha.~
Well in a way its true. The sun was shinning and the birds were chirpping. Shelley had come over. Shelley and I have been the bestest of best friends for almost 15 years now. She has two little girls. They both look the same.The oldest girl is seven. The other one is kind of a Victoria look alike. She just turned two in October. She has this Blonde hair that has a light light red tint to it. The length and style of her hair is the same as Victorias Before she got her hair cut. She has those same blue eyes. Sometimes when her hair is all fixed up a certain way. I see this look. Sometimes It feels the same way it did when Victoria use to look at me. There were days Victoria would give me this look. One in which I felt she just stared at me. It kinda feels like she could see what I thought and felt. Almost like she was looking in my soul. Oh well! What I am saying is. If you are up there in that jail with like even only one picture of Victoria. If I were to bring this little girl up there with her hair fixed a certain way. You would certainly swear you were confronting Victoria Angel.
~ Anyways~
Back to the topic. Monday Shelley came over and we went to the cemetary. As usual it did not
look as if anyone had been out there for a few weeks. My friend lives a mile from the cemetary. Everytime she comes to my house she passes it. So, once a week Shelley usually takes a rose or something on her grave. Well, Monday we went out there and cleaned the leaves off. The squirels seems to love the spot. As there are always nuts scattered around her. We took all of the old stuff off the grave. Then we redecorated it. Someone bought a large angel statue when she was first buried. And another was bought about two months ago. We took all of it off. There was a rotten moldy faced barbie, some decayed veggie tale erasers, and some jungle book figurines. We cleaned it up real good. We did not throw any of the stuff away as it might hurt someones feelings. We put a fiber optic tree that lights up out there (still 4 days later it was working.) Two Christmas bears, a bunch of these big poinseta flowers then, We wrapped some christmas lights in them. We then lined the grave up with these little plastic candy canes. When we had all the stuff including the big Santa Clause face organized. We sprayed a can of snow all over the pebbles. I called up there to the jail and asked if I could send pictures or newspaper clippings. The counsler guy said yes to the pictures and no to the newspaper clippings. If you want. I'd like to send you some things.

I kinda figured you were upset about how I responded to your letter. I am sorry if we got off on the wrong start. If it even be that way. I just figured you wanted to know my feelings and what I thought. I feel I can somewhat be honest with you. There were things that went on. That I am not sure you were aware I knew of. Don't hate the things I say. It will only hinder what I write to you and say. The questions I asked of you in my last letter. I beg and wonder to know. I do not wish anything on you. I don't want to see you on death row. I don't hate YOU. I don't judge YOU. There are just things my heart crys out to know. I want you to express and write to me your feelings. Knowing that all I can do is Hear your words Write to me and read my letter with an open Heart. Knowing all I can do is take in what you say. Just as all you can do is take in and try to understand what I struggle with and see daily.

I am not sure what you think about while you are in there. What do you think about? All of the guys I ever knew who went to jail. There thoughts were of getting out and Getting SOME. I'm not to sure you are thinking like that. I don't know why I just think else wise. I would say what I think you might be going through. Then I hear Scott telling me, "Hope you think you know everything." He also says, "I speak without thinking." (love hurts)
I am gonna say what I think anyway. As I am sure you are assuming how I think and feel. I think that for the past 3 years you have sat in shadows. You have been alone finding no peace. You have relived the eleven months you spent with Victoria Grace over and over in your head. You ponder how things could of or would of been. Had you, had patience. You miss Tanya. You wish to hold her one more time. She was the best and most mature girl you had in a sense. You know in your heart that you were wrong. You miss what it is like having family near. I feel in the beginning your mind was being tortured. You were destined for death, ready and willing, to die. All over what you had done to that baby and her family. As time has passed. I feel you probably don't cry as much anymore. I know that there are still the thoughts and the tears. Its just not as bad as it was. So as Scott would say, "Hope you think you know everything." I don't know everything.
~ I assume alot~
I tend to read and write alot. There was time when I Would go to bed. And it seemed like my dreams were being read to me. Everything I dream, think of, What I feel, and the things I see I write. Everything I write I post on the internet. I like to write stories, poems rhymes, and then post it on websites and differant forums.In some forums people can actually respond to what you wrote. It helps me when I write. Sometimes I will go back months later and read what I wrote. Writting helps me to get my thoughts out and to clear my mind. So if I send you a goofy poem. It doesn't mean anything. Sometimes I re-read a goofy rhyme months later and I find truth and answers.
~ CRAZY I GUESS~

I Got that Id# of yours off some website. When I was nosily looking at your info on the site. I noticed your Birthday is November 27th 1978. Very, very weird in a way. The brother that I never get to see. His Birthday is also November 27th 1978. Mysteries unfolding. Happy Birthday!! Something I am sure I want even get to tell my brother.

I am sure in my letter you noticed. At the bottom of several pages. There is a quote "Two men stand in prison bars, One sees mud the other see stars." It is a quote I have had for over a year on one certain website. The quote has nothing to do with you. I am sure you will interpret the quote the same way I do.

Well I will close my letter here. It has taken a good while to finally complete this letter. Take note I am a girl and I cook the day before Thanksgiving. But, the day before Thanksgiving everything takes all day. Well, Be good and God Bless.

Hope

Ps: I am including a poem I entered into a contest. The contest asked for a silly poem. The other stuff is just stuff.
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MY CONTEST POEM..They were looking for something silly..

Begin again
Thoughts my friend
Take me to the weary End!
That is where I submit and send.

To be published in an art found way
Help to send it courageously at the end of each day.

To collect a thought
And to write it down.
Helps when you feel a lil frown.
Thoughts feelings letters you find
Rhymes and poems you write sometimes

To have a place where you can go
Doesn't matter when your feelings show
To have a book
Where you can take a look

When you read beetween the lines.
You can learn some of the times.

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"DEATH"

Death is but a fleighting glimpse
Of lifes long memories
Crystalized realized lifes long histories.
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BABYGIRLS_BABYDOLLS

Posted: Sat Nov 13, 2004 2:18 pm Post subject: I FOUND MY FRIEND ON BLUEBERRY HILL!!

Ha Ha what a topic
Anyways it appears nobody replies to nobody no more. We all are just shut up all alone on our own lil planets.. As some of you know my computer is not feeling to Hot these days.. I must commit myself to a day and time and download the security updates for my poor lil thing before he decides not to wake up one morning..

I guess I been livin a new life lately. I'm all sad and stuff I cry all the time I take things the wrong way ain't been going no where lately. Yall really wanna know? I think I am depressed. Life has become such a mess.
Da mate he's well he might getta hold of this page one day..So I better hush up and stop there. HEY SCOTT I LOVE YOU

Okay back to my Head problem. I am lately finding myself in bed alot.. Use to the bed was only fer sleeping and stuff
Now I wake up clean and SIT in bed. Geez man I have sat in bed so much my feeling in my rear is going numb feels like my back bones have sunk into my BUTT

Yall wanna know what I find so fun about this bed? Nothing really I mean its all comfy and the sheets are soft but I think I finally found my place. You know some like to sit on the toliet, some find a desk more comfotable, others like being outside. I think the bed might be my spot.. I think more in bed than I think anywhere else.. I have learned to not think in bed anymore.. I now place my thoughts somewhere else.. You know I just sit there on the bed all lonley and stuff then all theses rhymin words start poppin in my head. Its like the Fred the shower head and junk like that... I like to rhyme aloot of times.

~anyways~

I wrote all this cause I was bored.
K, well heres my lastest rhyme.

Dreams inbetween
Life and Things
hiddeous horrible scary dreams

Life and things Inbetween
gives birth and you dream your dreams

Hate it seems brings grief and pain
harbored memories all scary dreams

Life and love
mysteries above
Great and true all these dreams for you.

Time and Trouble
They seem to come in doubles

Tribulations Trails gives heed to new tales.

Life and Death
They both seem the same.
They give heed to new troubles and pains.

To feel the warmth of the wind in your hair
To smell the sun and to feel the air
It all has me wondering why I'm not there.

The price thats paid, For the games you play
Always makes you wonder why you did it that way.

Hate and greed tortured tattered all bruised and battered
All those poor lifes shattered

Cold wind blows
all dressed in warm clothes
shiny red nose
walking on tip toes
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Now how Goofy did that sound? I am feeling the warmth of the wind in your hair. While I am all dressed in warm clothes lookin at shiny cold red noses..

Welp till Next time
ADIOS

Ps I ain't spell checkin this post either ..Its all a mystery
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~ Babygirls_babydolls ~
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"FAITH IS KNOWING...KNOWING IS WITHOUT DOUBT"

When you know.
Your spirit will grow.
Faith wins all.
Your feelings they fall.
To know shall make your eyes a glow.

In the heart
The first place to start.
Make or break think your part

When you feel the stress and certainly have less.
The spirits can make a mess
Soothe and caress
But God shall bless a soul.
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To hear his voice.
Its really a choice.

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There are hills to climb
Bills to pay
Save it for a carnal day
The spirits are out and they want to play
Listen and you hear what they have to say.
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Here I sit in Christian Chat.
Wondering what I'll do.
When suddenly I was asked to write.
And my feelings drifted slowly to you.

The Hour it seems so late.
Its becoming a habit I'd like to shake.
The head it reels, it spins, its turns.
I wonder, I think i hope to learn.

My feelings they seem mid level.
Sometimes I am oppressed by devils.
My mind is not as ease. My thoughts are not there.
And there are so many things I'd like to share.
Thou I am not sure you will even care.
Near Two a.m. and I wonder do I dare.
Sit here and think ,I hesitate and contemplate.

The thoughts drift and get in today.
The things we do.
The things we say.
Can sometimes get in the way.

So Be careful what you do.
Jesus will always be watching over you.
The mystery the Spirit its always following true.
Rethink and think it new.

As I sit and rhyme I imagine up a line.
Why bother it takes alot of time?
Its just a little Hobby I have of mine.

I'll write a new subject.
I'll tell a differant kind.
Sometimes it helps a little just to remind..
Theres a Spirit and its not far behind.

Go Hope tell them about before.
Remeber when you slept beside that door.
you laid and listened on the floor.
you waited and you wanted more.

Remeber when they entered in.
She clearly was more than just a friend.
Sometimes as I laid she would sing a tune.
She was an Angel and she was in my room.

To begin I say it started just this way.
I was in the Spirit each and everyday.
I waited. I watched. I listened. I heard.

It is fair to say I was meek.
But still my ears were weak
It was the beginning and things weren't to clear.
Pardon me! Theres something I want you to hear
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She is an Angel I aknowledged on that day.
She is a spirit who sings to my soul
Sometimes speaking and being ever so bold.
These things they are rarely ever told.
For in todays world people have grown away from his mold.
They don't search.
Their hearts have turned cold.
They have turned to the devil to him thier spirit is sold.

So I want to write and bring to light.
All the things Good and right.
Read the Bible its in plain sight.
Seemed before it was blurred by a cloud
Then all of the sudden her voice was ever so loud
It was something that made me very proud

Everyday it happened this way..
I would go to bed and lay.
And in my head I'd pray
Please Lord let me hear it again today.
What it is my Angel has to say.

Ever felt how peace can feel?
Quiet, full the mind don't reel.
Its awesome and its very real
Just how the spirits appeal.

Even the weakest of mind
Can hear the spirits all the time
It can sometimes leave a person behind.
When a blind mind and the wrong Spirit combines.
Leave ya thinking a little outta the lines.
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I frequently go to yahoo christian chat room 3. Someone has set up a forum. Just for that particular room. So if I mention CC3 that is what I am referring to. This is what someone posted..

Posted: Mon Nov 08, 2004 5:36 pm Post subject: Memster Removed as Moderator and User

Memster has been removed from Moderator status and User status due to his repeated stance in the chatroom that one can willfully, repeatedly disobey God as a Christian, show no fruit, and remain as a branch on the Vine of Christ. Every time I talk about obedience in the context of Grace, he has shown the gall of discounting the relevance of John 15, Galatians 5, 1 Cor. 6:9-11, 1 John 3, Romans 8, 1 Peter, and Revelations to his life. These scriptures speak to us all and remind us that we must remain in Christ in order for Him to remain in us, as John 15 declares, and the other Scriptures delineate. I have no tolerance for people who preach disobedience, and they certainly have no place of authority on my Forum. GBU all and pray for his soul. Wear _________________ "Jesus said unto them, Verily verily , I say unto you, Before Abraham was, I AM" John 8:58 (KJV)

babygirls_babydolls
Joined: 25 Nov 2003
Posts: 52
Location: Georgia
Posted: Sun Nov 14, 2004 12:39 am post subject: Dr. Sure right Babygirls


MEMSTER, Now what the heck have you done gone and done?? Oh I hope we can come to some sort of settlment here.. Memster I love you man. Array Yeap I luv you to . Well I ain't gonna go all out and explain things. I just figured yall would understand. CC3 has become a war zone so to say. Its not good fer goin in and hearin a good word no more. I still remeber the first time I visited CC3. It was way back in 2001 or 2. Anyways my point was this.. The first moment I revolved through the cyber door. I knew that it was the chat for me.. Why I will tell ya.. Everyone was so friendly with everyone.. I actually learned things about other peoples denominations, thier beliefs and cultures.I never learned so much about RELIGIONS in my whole 20 something years of life. Than when I first meet you guys. I saw how well everyone got along. It was like they cared for one another. No one sat for hours on the mic saying so and so is an idot for 3 straight hours.. People didn't hate as much as they do now.. I ain't saying nobodys hating nobody. I am just saying the 2 of you have been pals fer awhile now. I don't belive we should let petty arguments strife or debates get in the way of our duties here on EARTH.. I don't no about yall but What I seek in this life more than anything else is a closer relationship with God.. If someone else believes differant than me I am not going to cause resentment in any way.. I wanna know what everyone believes and thinks all over the world.. I mean some people actually believe the same exact way I do except it is said in a differant way meaning the same thing I do. I think we should love our fellow man. Because when Christ is in us there is much Light and love in you. I love you both very very much. Dang it this is where yall hug and say I am sorry man I luv you
___________ ~ Babygirls_babydolls ~ ______________

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WEARTHEARMOR Posted: Wed Nov 17, 2004 4:16 pm Post subject: Errata 1

Sitting here wondering why people think they have the right to disobey God? It just really puzzles me how someone can think they are a good Christian if they teach, preach, or do disobedience... Obedience isn't hard when the Holy Spirit is constantly reminding you to do it! Sigh, just another case of chat blues. I think I'm going to spend less time in CC3 from now on. I'm tired of the slander and the hate for God and those that want to follow Him, whether in faith or in deed. Nobody puts these people on ignore, which is the most frustrating thing. How many times do you have to hear someone speak against the Law of the Spirit and be reproved for it before you realize that they aren't going to change until they start listening to God again? Every single person that preaches disobedience in CC3 isn't bearing fruit. It is almost like witnessing to the unsaved: you have to explain the fundamentals of our Faith all over again. Be seeing you guys around. I'll still be on Messenger, if you want to IM. But I'm going to take it easy from chat for a while. I'll come back occasionally. GBU Wear _________________ "Jesus said unto them, Verily verily , I say unto you, Before Abraham was, I AM" John 8:58 (KJV)

WearTheArmor
Site Admin
Joined: 13 Oct 2003
Posts: 195
Location: Wisconsin, Alpha Centauri
posted: Wed Nov 17, 2004 4:20 pm Post subject: ...
Feel free to use this forum, I'll still check in on it. I'm not going to take it down right now, but if the situation remains the same and only a couple people are using it, I can always use the server space and bandwidth for something else... _________________ "Jesus said unto them, Verily verily , I say unto you, Before Abraham was, I AM" John 8:58 (KJV)

babygirls_babydolls
Joined: 25 Nov 2003
Posts: 52
Location: Georgia
Posted: Thu Nov 18, 2004 4:06 pm Post subject: In Reply To Your Reply

One thing is clear. When you are in the spirit it is impossible to sin. Those in Spirit "THINK/ SPEAK in the Spirit." I do wish that my flesh/ Evil side would allow me to remain in the spirit 24/7 365 days a year. As I write this I start remebering all of those Months that I was in the spirit.. It seemed much like this. I would be eager and wake up early. My first thought would be anything and everything about the "MYSTERIES OF GOD." It was like I lived and breathed here on Earth but my mind was not here with my body. I hope that you understand that! All I ever really wanted to do was read the Bible. I felt like I was the one God was speaking to. Not Paul, Mary, John, or Martha or the various other mentioned in the Bible. I would find myself speaking like the Bible with words such as Thus, Thee, Thou, shalt, etc. When I was not reading the Bible I was in the Spirit doing my Housework/ Yardwork. I would make up songs about God and Hum as I worked. If I was not Humming I would be wondering this or that and try to Understand. When I spoke to people I was eager and bold to tell others what I had been shown. You have to understand when you are in the Spirit. Many good and wonderful things begin, being revealed to you. When I pray its like Someone is helping me to find the words to say. Its not like a whisper of someone telling you. Its much like the words are just there and you have only begun to realize it. It usually is a prayer unlike all the others. What I mean is most prayers are prayed only when in need of help, or you say the same thing night after night ( I think this is what the Bible refers to as Babbling.) When totally in Spirit with my whole mind. I begin having dreams answering the questions that I have pondered night and day. While doing house/ yard work or while just sitting on the sofa. I have gone into a trance and have had visions. They usually leave me wondering What Happened! Was I still cleaning? Was my eyes open? Did my body start shaking all over? I really do Love when God answers me in this way. When in The spirit my Ears seem to be like receivers. I mean my ears work differant. They hear things that you would not normally hear. See when you are in the Spirit you are quiet. Your Mind does not drift of to what you did or what other do on Earth. Your mind is always quiet waiting, and listening. Your mind is still and if your mind is not still waiting it is on the things of God (only thinking of him.) It is almost impossible to hear the voice of God when you are not "QUIET IN THE MIND." To me Gods voice comes very quick It is not spoken the way you or I speak. I think the Lord pretty much speaks the way the Bible does. I don't want to say God speaks in parables but his words may sometime seem that way. For Example: One night a few days after the SEPTEMBER 11th plane crashes. I became very worried we would go to war.I prayed crying God would hear and understand my fears. In the middle of my prayer I paused due to the tears. When I paused God spoke to me He said, " He who has the face of war rideth his horse in the face of other men." To me that sounds like a parable. To me though I feel God has always spoken fast when speaking to me. I feel when my mind is on God I am blessed. At night (only when I am in the spirit) when mind and body are still laying then quiet waiting and listening. I will hear someone singing to me. I will also hear the most heavenly musical instuments. This is very much unlike the music played on the radio. I describe this as soul music. This voice ( I will call her my Angel) will sing. It feels like she is singing the words on my soul. Not just my head. The Angels Voice and the instruments are very meditative. At times this angel will cause me to fall into a trance and I will have a vision. Or I will fall into a deep sleep and have what I call "GOD FELT DREAMS." Those are the kinda dreams you have. Where you feel it could have only come from God. Dreams that answer questions you have been having and such. When in the Spirit. I have this "Knowing feeling." I feel kinda like a psychic so to say. I am not exactally psychic. I just call it that. Its that I feel and know things are going to happen before they actually do. Its not hard to describe what it is like to always be in obediance and obey God. That is because the only way we can do this is by being in the Spirit. When in the flesh. I am always Bored. I feel there is nothing to do, no where to go, nobody to talk to. I am simply bored outta my brain. There is always something else I find to do other than read the Bible. ~although! The spirit will say "you should do it." In the flesh I sometimes feel like there is just nothing else to learn. He showed me all. In the flesh I argue alot with my mate, I am on the computer way to many hours a day. Which takes away time from my son. When I am in the flesh my Body and mind wanna break free and party. I want to have more fun and do things I shouldn't. When in disobediance it is safe to say you are in the FLESH. When at the times I tend to pray the same thing night after night. I sometimes even forget to pray, I tend to be depressed alot, I take things people say the wrong way, I am closed minded, I want to argue, our family lacks financally, and lots of bad things start happening. When in the flesh my mind can seem only to think about the things we deal with daily here on planet Earth. I wonder whats my friend doing today? Will she come over today? What will I do this weekend? Maybe I should buy me a bottle of wine tonight and go to Christian chat room 3. I wonder how I am going to get the money to do this or that. Its just so many stupid thoughts. ARRAY when you write and speak of not obeying GOD over and over. You are saying people are always in the flesh and never in the Spirit. For some have said that they are in the Spirit. When actually they know not even what it is like to be in the Spirit.. Some think well I quoted that right without scripture. The spirit was sure in me. Some think because they know the answer they have the spirit.
~not couldn't be futher from the truth~
To be perfectly honest I can't ignore a person because they are not in the Spirit when they Type or speak. As I find myself in the spirit for months at a time. Always returning back to my "SINFUL FLESHLY DISOBEDIANT NATURE." If I ignored people because they were not in the Spirit. I would find myself only chatting with 1 or 2 people in my life. Then even these 1 or 2 people would not always be in the spirit. I don't think that just by telling someone something over and over again will make them change or think differant. It can influence and distract but not change.. Only God can truly change a person inside out. I believe we can remind a person of things. If someone is a discouragment to yourself, or they are causeing Strife, arguments, and resentment. If it is causing problems with your relationship with the Spirit of God and Christ then you should ignore the person. Not everyone will believe the way we do. Sometimes you have to listen and read between the lines to understand they are saying almost exactally what you believe. We have a JOB to do!! When we realize what are duties are it makes life a little easier. Our #1 believer and follower of Christ is to LOVE.We are to love everyone and everything. We are to show Love in word and deed in everything we do. When we learn to Love those that are unlike ourselves or even much like us. We learn a valuable "GIFT/ POWER" with love and with the Spirit we are Unable to Judge others. Though we Judge all things in the Spirit. Being such as we judge a sin no worse than we judge another sin. When you read the Bible you understand that there is no differance between telling a lie and murder. That is because they both come against the law of The SPIRIT. When we sin we have an advocate with Christ. We believe in Christ because He died for Our Sins. Because Christ Forgives, heals, reveals, and destroys sin. Christ is truely the only way. Like I said before it is not possible to sin in the spirit. Array I somehow feel this post is due to your feelings about Memster. I hope the two of you can come to terms and work your differances out. I do love the both of you. As I have not been in chat to much lately. I don't know what is going on other than what is posted in the forum. I understand MEMSTER has been in chat quiet a bit hogging the microphone. I understand that he is speaking about things people do not agree with. Array you posted what I can only assume MEMSTER is preaching. 1.) Disobediance toward God, having no fruit/ Gifts and still remaining Christian.. Being Christian is a belief means you believe in Christ and what the Bible says. Just because you believe in Christ and because you believe the Bible does not make you spiritual. Obediance and faith make you spiritually Intune. Like I said you have to be in the spirit to not be disobediant. How can we be in the flesh and not disobey? The fruit of the spirit is much like a power of God. Something that you can only get from God. Love, joy, longsuffering, patience, meekness. All these things can only be done in the spirit. It is hard to be loving, patient, and gentle with Some. Thats why I call it a gift. If you have the love of God you have one of his greatest Gifts. I myself do not belive that when the spirit is in you. That you are able to disobey.. That is impossible.. A mind on God is what you find in someone who is Spiritual. Now this buisness with you giving up my secret hide away cause we r the only posters. Well that is just plain crazy talk. I really wish that you would take my suggestion if you want traffic to this site. I have said place it on search engines. Don't just place our names on Google but the every word spoke in this forum. I believe that the site would be a bigger blessing to you that way.. Just a suggestion. LUVS YOU :X ~ Babygirls_babydolls ~
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Hope Willingham ~ Babygirls_babydolls ~ " Two men stand in prison bars, one sees mudd the ot