Reading shakylegs's journal

I deleted joey, about two months ago, it was hard as although I Have done it before this time I did it with all contacts of him knowing it would be almost impossible to try and contact him ever again. I did it because I was getting obsessive and if i didn't do it soon well... I don't know but I was annoying him and almost going crazy thinking about him, waiting for him.

Today I transfered all my sim numbers from my old phone to my new phone and his number came up, shock, horror. I kept thinking of the last thing he said to me over msn "stay as wonderful as you are". Should I text him for his email. No then I would have to tell him why I deleted him and he doesn't care he hasn't even tried to egt hold of me wondering where i'am.. that was the hardest part of deleting him knowing that he wouldn't contact me even though it would be strange that we suddenly stop talking every night because I'm not online.

I haven't text or deleted his number. But I have though about him and how he thinks I'm a twat and how I love him. There is a guy at college they are so alike that when I see him my heart stops.

I will delete the number, it's best. He did promise me we would be together again, I just have to wait, even if when we do see each other again and it's shit at least I know that and can stop this whole pain thing.

For the moment I'm going to carry on having fun, think about him everynow and then and then have more fun.. probably best off with out him.

Can't think what to say...