Reading NiQuE's journal

I am taking a moment to reflect on the events of a particular gay community in my city (the biggest one, mind you, the bar scene).

People are beginning to warm up to the idea of a man and a man being together or a woman and a woman being together...But we still have the odd redneck who chooses to deny the idea of anything but traditional partnerships.

Fine.

I went out to a gay club last Saturday night, I found out that there are some behaviors about gays that I dislike myself, and can see how these particular details can be portrayed in an extremely negative way by the straight/gay bashing community.

Now let me tell you all right off that I am a lesbian. I am not out to the public, but I do choose to let certain people in my life know about my sexual identity. This is a choice, and I choose to keep myself semi-in the closet because I want to protect myself from the bashers.

Having said that, I need to explain myself further to those who have read up to this point and might want to strangle me.... Please read on.

I went into this club and it was filled with the usual regulars who attend this bar on every Saturday night (the busiest night of the week). On the very odd Saturday there are a few new faces in there, but this rarely happens. I also noticed that most of these regulars don't have the best jobs in the world, and usually drink their faces off, or do a bunch of hard-core drugs, and are usually running blindly from relationship to relationship, or most often...fling to fling. It actually sickened me. I mean, no wonder some straight people look at our community the way that they do. We look, to them, like a bunch of people who aren't going anywhere in their lives, and who definately aren't contributing anything to society. Now don't get me wrong, obviously there are straight people in this world just like this...but common, when the majority of the people in this gay bar have absolutely nothing going for them, it looks pretty pathetic on our part...

Call dancing around in thongs and rainbow hats culture, call it whatever you want, I call it trash. I think showing pride is fine, but when you are mowing at eachothers face on a float at a gay parade, its not going to make anyone scream for the rights of gays. If I saw ANYONE mowing at eachothers faces in public I would be down right grossed out.

All I am saying is for SOME (definately not all, because not all gays are like this) gay's to have alittle bit of class and stop flashing their penises and or strap-ons about. Its really not gonna make anyone want to give you any kind of respect, even those who are gay themselves.

Of all the things that I have lost in my life, it's my mind that I miss the most.

This post was edited by NiQuE on Dec 16, 2004.

I totaly agree with you. I am open in all aspects such as yourself. My last relationship was with a girl and my mom thought of it as a "phase". Whether it was or wasn't didn't matter to me. It is what I wanted and that's all that matters. I never went around flaunting the fact that I was with another girl but I wasn't ashamed of it either. I am with a guy now and we plan on getting married, but I am still attracted to females aswell. Live life to the fullest and as long as you're happy don't let anything stop you. Fuck bashers. Rednecks should stop fuckin' their relatives and let other people be!

Nicole Merritt