Reading baexcell's journal

Well, according to the clock and accompanying calendar, it is now officially 2005 here in good ole Washington State. I consider New Year's Eve a time to reflect on the past year and see what you have accomplished for better or worse, and try to continue or stop according to your preferences of each. As I have looked back these past few days, I have seen that there are simply a lack of accomplishments for me, either positive or negative. I left an almost 2 year relationship and a stable (even if not luxurious) financial situation and a job that I was really starting to a) enjoy and b) make a place with the company for career growth, and I came to a place where I am essentially living off of my girlfriend's grandparents for everything and not anywhere near where I can find a job due to the responsibilities I have here. WHile some would say this is definitely an accomplishment of the negative nature, due to the complete lack of anything being done now and it being so different from where I was 5 moths ago. Others would hail it as a positive for findind a relationship where I am not being so stressed by money that the relationship gets lost in the middle by both parties. To me, living it, I know that its nothing more than a trade-off. Such is the way of my life, if I get one thing, I lose another. It keeps things balanced, but that doesn't mean I have to like it.

As a result, I have decided my New Year's Resolution for 2005 is simply to do more than I did this year. Also, to try and make amends with the enemies I have made since I found the "real world" was much different than I was led to believe.

Anyway, Happy New year, y'all.