Reading Athena's journal

Hello. I have so uch on my mind right now I don't know what to do. I have a friend with amnesia, another in Fort Knox in TRAINING, and some more in their own kind of trouble, as well as my family. If wishes could come true, I wish things would at least lighten up. My friends and family expect me to be perfect for them, and to always be there, but I need time for ME. I'm not selfish, just seriously stressed out. well, enough complaining, I need to go.

Athena

Athena, here and there...

May be you need to take some time out for yourself, I am also somewhat like in your shoes, going through all stressful life. Although it is always much easier for other person to say Hey take it easy.

I wish your friend get well soon. And your family understands your situation instead of expecting from you.

You take care and smile and laugh for yourself.

but I need time for ME

This is definitely one of the things you need to keep your sanity! When I was in Korea (for a year) and my family (wife and daughter) were back in the US, I'd frequently take long walks and listen to music so that I could clear my mind and focus on what I should be doing. By nature I am a negative person, meaning that I always focus on the negative aspects of a situation rather than the positive. I've had to train myself to take time to clear my head and force myself to focus on positive aspects of my life. I refer to this time as a means to gain perspective on my life. If I had something going on the next day that was causing me stress and worry I'd almost certainly take the time to gain some perspective on this! I guess this can be likened to meditating but I've adapted my own little special way to do it. It's really helped me out and maybe it can work for you.

I can seriously relate to the problem. My parents expect just so much from me, but they don't realize that my studies are so tough and they take up all of my day.

Sometimes I have class from 12 to 19:30, and if you consider that I go to the university earlier to do the German listening I have to do to take an exam, I get home that I am completely exhausted. Well, normally my dad gets upset at me because when he arrives home he finds me trying to relax or rest, and he complains that I haven't fixed dinner!

Aside from days like that one I am fine though, but mainly because my parents aren't in the house all the time (fortunately, or I would already be in a psychiatric hospital), and I can have time for myself.

Btw. Shabnam... glad to see you are still around :)

Un bacio è un'apostrofo rosa scritto tra le parole "ti amo".

I know... even when I came to a college campus to stay for 6 weeks, they can't leave me be. Its always "here you need this" or "now remember, if you hug him, he'll have to die..." I HATE those little quotes. All I ask for is a little space... I'm gonna be 18 in September, they have to let ME learn some of these things on my own. They are not gonna be there for me when I move, or when I graduate college, so why are They doing this? Not to mention, they think it is absolutely nessescery to tell me every litle glitch in our finances... "Oh, we can't get pizza tonight, kids. the phone will be cut off if your mother doesn't get off her lazy ass and pays it." (then he goes out and buys computer parts to build himself a bettter and faster computer...) He's a joke!! and a jerk at that.

I'm going now, I've let most of my anger out on this... I hope... later guys, you all are a great help.

Athena, here and there...