Reading harold_maude's journal

I was wandeing through a book the other day on psychiactric nursing, and found some interesting things.

In the glossery it had all kinds of unique terms and what they ment and I found it to be not boring reading at all.
I tend to fall asleep when I read text books. They are the next best thing to taking a pill to make sleep come.

Anyway, it listed among other things personal space. I thought wow, here in the middle of all these terms relating to things people live in the middle of everyday, there is personal space.

The reason I started looking at this book is because my sister was talking to one of my roomates on the phone while she was waiting for me to get home from work or long enough to kind of sort through this person she was talking to, and she still has the impression of me that I'm neurotic.

I thought about it. What does it mean to be neruotic anyway?
Is that like a brand of socks that someone identifies with you when everyone does their wash together?
Or maybe it's really like a package of hot dogs that has a certian name on it that we reconize as tasting a certian way.

So the search was on. We don't have a dictionary in the house. I know that's not normal. Everyone should have a dictonary even if it's covered with dust.
Anyway, I pulled this book off the shelve, and started looking for nerotic.
I found a cool quote that kind of sums up the whole mental quirk thing:

"Nerotics build the dream house, Pshycotics live in the house, and the phsychitrist collets the rent"

I though I want that on a t-shirt!
But it still didn't answer my question. What does neruotic actually mean.
Well acording to this book neuroctic means one who worries alot.
Well if that's the case then most of the world is neurotic.

I loved this idea as well, that neurosis was only attrubited to the weatlthy and the poor were just psychotic...(who decited how to write these words? They have strange letters in weird places)

So I'm poor, that means I'm not neurotic, I'm just psycho...
I can't afford a neurosis!
It cracks me up. Half the world according to the definition is psycho and the rich part are the ones who can afford neurosis.

I could see a store call neurotics are us...things for thoes special times of worry...

It was all too funny.

50 cent words to say that worring too much is a bad thing.
I figured that part out, it makes you sick, and robbs you of sleep and makes everything else get scewed in your vision.
It becomes all you think about.
And it doesn't think about your income or anything else for that matter.

I think my sister, the only one I really ever talk to anymore, doesn't have a clue as to who I am.
She still has me in some kind of little box.
She can keep that box.
I don't live there anymore. But sadly, like most people who used to know who you were can't get it that your not that person anymore.
Even if they say the same thing about how people from their past view them.
She's fond of saying she's not the person she was way back when.

Anyway, it was a good search after all. I found out some strange things. And lots and lots of big words with too many letters, and all of it seemed so detached.
I wonder if that's what it takes to be a good head doctor...or would it be better stated an explorer of the mind?
I like that term best. Makes the person who gets 75 dollars an hour to listen and pretend they really care about the person they are listening to, when in reality they would probably much rather be somewhere else, just like the rest of us who don't like the work we do.

Ah well, there it is. Now I know what it means when people lable me neurotic.
I haven't the heart to tell them I'm too poor to aford a neurosis, but that all I can afford is a phsycosis...it's the fast food plate at the mind resutrant.

It only looks that way because your standing on your head.