Reading eljefe's journal

Over the past few days and weeks, I've had a Come-To-Jesus meeting with myself on a couple issues. Some concerning stuff about myself, some concering other people.

Something I came to was my innate drive to try and please people. Now mind you I can be extremely passionate about a couple topics, but on the outliers I become very pliable to whatever the trend is. Sometimes this is a good thing, but mostly the values it changes are not so good. Think of it like being in the popular crowd. I'm swinging to the fads and I've started to allow myself to notice this fact.

But, more alarmingly I found that I've been going against one of my most firm and ironed principles in my being: reciprocity. I believe in returning everything that is given to me, and add some "nice" to it on the way out. If someone does me a favour, I'll do likewise only do more or do a bigger favour or allow myself to be a guy that one would want to call on. However if someone does me wrong, I might give them a chance but I will do no worse than what was done to me.

Lately I've noticed that I've been going against reciprocity. Certain people and events (*cough*) have cause me to realize that I am more leanient to people who in turn keep taking and taking. Not only in the physical manifestations, but politically. I've found that as a conservative, giving away any ground in the forms of a compromise (which I do very much so believe in: we can't please them all) or in the forms of respect, I find that more becomes demanded of me politically. I give one inch of ground in deference, like the acknowledgement of equal rivals, and immediately the opposing (liberal) party scrambles upon this space and demands more and more until I view them as gods and their word as scripture.

When I try to debate many an inane argument a liberal can make, or positions to hold (I swear to God in heaven if I ever see another car with the sticker "Noone died when Clinton lied," I'll trash it and beat the owner within an inch of their life and turn them over to a Christian Scientist for medical care), rather than presenting me with logical points A, B, and X proving Z and Y, they yell and scream and fuss and call me a liar or, yes, I have been called a fag. Amazing, the group that supposedly loves the homosexual community (and diversity and the rights of others) invokes a euphamism repesenting them as a derogatory statement (and supposedly a very insulting one at that).

If it wasn't for NAO I would be utterly convinced a liberal did not know how to form an argument or open their goddamned eyes and make decisions for themseleves (not made by Ted Kennedy, the fucking drunk womanizer murderer beacon (havn't been in the game lately, should it be former?) of the democratic party).

So I've made a promise to myself. Fucking political correctness (again), I have decided to be unyielding (stubborn as some might call it) in my beliefs. I have made a pact that I will not debate a liberal unless they proactively prove themeselves to know how to work google.com and research, in unbiased or opposing-political-spectrum sites. I will not grant any moral ground to the left-wingers, and though they dont' have any moral ground, I figure this is a capitalistic society and they can work their way into it, like you are supposed ot. I will not concede nor will I compromise with a left-winger unless they do so on a point of mine at the same time or before myself. And I am determined, at every possible instance, even if it means obssesed planning and research, to expose the innate hipocricy of the left (right wing conspiricy? For christs sake conservatives are not organized and Fox is barely hanging in there).

And since I know how NAO works, I'll kindly ask that if you feel strongly for or against my views or opinions, please do not rate it. If you are "eeh" neutral, feel free to rate my syntax and or delivery.

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