Reading hells_angel's journal

Lord help me right now. I just emailed my advisor and I really don't think what I had to say came out the way I wanted it too. I just kept it very brief. I hope he considers what I am requesting. If my advisor was like one of my friends I wouldn't have such a hard time just shooting the breeze, scratch that, how about shooting the helicoptor leaves with him and tell him what's been going on. But it's my advisor and I just keep stuff brief. I don't even meantion that I don't have a job, I don't have a life, and that my life blends with everyone's life at home. I don't even meantion the fact that I am mildly depressed. And I certainly didn't meantion the fact that if I have to stay home for another year I am either going to die or runaway. That's just me. I know I should be happy that I emailed my advisor but the truth is I'm worried he's going to be like "well miss ... I am busy right now with scheduling classes for everyone and obvisouly you are not are my priority list right now, but when I have some time I will get back to." Ok I am going to prepare myself for the worst. I just hope the FAFSA form I filled out didn't go to waste and the loan application I am mailing out tomorrow and the poetry scholarship I am also mailing out tomorrow didn't go to waste either. Cuz if he says he can't help me everything I have mailed out and the money I spent (ok that my mom spent) goes to waste and how am I going to tell her "gee mom you know you look really nice today...ummm how can I put this delicately your daughter, me, is a complete and total f*c*ing idiot. Not only is she an idiot but she is an idiot that will not be back in college again for another year. Maybe we'll get it right again some year."

Take your time don't live to fast troubles will come and they will pass