Reading hells_angel's journal

Well I got the confirmation yesterday about my life. And in case you didn't know my life sucks. I still haven't mustered up the curage to call my grandpa and say "old man river i need you to cosign for this loan that I am trying to get so I can go back to school." I just don't want to break down on the phone and tell him like it is "if I don't go back to school I am going to end up more miserable than what I am now and any shot of a life that I might have had... well it's gone now." Ok it's not gone it's just put on hold and the only way it will ever come off of hold is if I can actually get a job here, and that isn't very likely considering there are no jobs.

I don't know anymore. I just want to give up. Although giving up hasn't been in my vocab before.

Take your time don't live to fast troubles will come and they will pass

In all honesty I know how you feel. Granted I don't think our situations are alot alike. Mine is more of an: "I found a job and it screwed me so I've got another that I've been told will fire me in three weeks if I don't make awesome sales and I owe people alot of money and my acadimic and family life has gone down the shitter" sort of thing.

And the only advise or sympathy that I can offer is that as cliche as it is (and over quoted), is that "this too shall pass". And whatever comes next isn't all that important just yet. You're best bet is to drag yourself through the here and now and do what you think might make a positive impact in the whole wide world of the future that is to come.

--Jami

You fail it.