Reading hells_angel's journal

I get to ask my grandpa about the loan this weekend. That is going to be fun. My Aunt is coming home this weekend thats the only reason I'm asking him. I know it'll be hard for him to say no when she's there. I am going to go about it my way and just tell him that I know all the reasons you have to say no. But with that in mind I would like you to just consider doing this for me knowing that I don't ask you for anything. I didn't ask you for the money to go to Tronto in 9th grade cuz I wanted to see Phantom of the Opera, I just didn't go. And I didn't ask you for the money to get my glasses and contacts this year, I just didn't get them yet. I hope he listens to me. Cuz if not it'll be another year or 5 years before I get back to school and by then it won't mean anything to me.

Tomorrow night is suposed to be fun. T.J. wants me to get high with him. I don't know but for some reason me and T.J. get along ok. I mean I know he is one of my bro's friends and it's a cool thing if we get along. I think we get along cuz T.J. is only about 3 years younger than me. He's gonna be 18 this year. Him and Ishkin are pretty cool towards me. I might get high with them tomorrow I might not...it's up to me and how I'm feeling. I just don't wanna get myself in that habbit again, but I can honestly say that I never had a drug problem because I've only done the stuff maybe a handful of times since I was 16. When I do it it's all about the background and what's going on. I'd do it in my room if I had bean bag chairs...I'm serious. I mean I have an isncence burner and a lava lamp and I normally listen to something that drifts my mind from it's limits. I think deep down I am a stoner but I just don't smoke like my bro does. I can't do it every day like he does. I'm happier when I'm high on life and things are mellow cuz honestly I think that being high on life is the best thing in the world and no pill can make you happier than that.
I filled out the Bi-Lo application last night. I gotta run that down tonight.

I told my mom about "that" last night she didn't say anything so I guess it's cool. I think Danny forgot about it cuz when I told him about it he was like "what the hell are you talking about?" I think I told her cuz I am sick of covering up for him and his girlfriend now she can't tell my mom about it and cuz my mom will tell her that I told her and that will get me off the hook. See I think that is the one thing about myself that I can't stand. If I know someone has dirt on me I don't act differently towards them I'm just carefull as hell around them until I come clean about it. Then again I don't really mess up all the time. I would like to disillusion myself in thinking that I am a good person, but sometimes I know I'm not. I mean I'm only human right and I do make mistakes like everyone else.

Take your time don't live to fast troubles will come and they will pass