Reading Saqqara's journal

What is it about human nature that compels a person to continue something once they are asked to stop? Is it the "high" they get from the laughter their antics generates? Is it wanting to see the other person get pissed/upset, or is it genuinely not knowing when they've carried things to far?

Being called names doesn't really bother me, as I know the truth and that's all that really matters, but my roomate went a bit too far today at work.

He insists that I am manly, which I admit, I don't wear makeup, and I hate wearing dresses, if that's the qualifying factor of being "manly". He constantly called me that today at work, things like "Hey, manly bitch" and "Look at that manly man work." Usually, things like that don't irritate me, but when I asked him to stop, that the joke was getting a little bit old, he refused.

That's what irked me. Never have I publicly mocked him about his life choice. I've never called him a faggot, a dick sucker, or any of the common terms for being gay. And I would never, even after today. I know how hurtful those things can be, even if we say they aren't. People bringing them up somehow makes us think about it, think we are doing something wrong from the choices we've made.

You'd think a 22 year old would have a bit more compassion, especially since he's chosen a lifestyle that gets him mocked everyday by others. Sounds like he needs a bit of help, but right now, I'm so irked, I can't deal with him.

"It is much more comfortable to be mad and know it, than to be sane and have one's doubts."

It appears to me that your friend is having some issues with himself so he's taking it out on you. I hate to be stereotypical, but every gay guy I know has a tendency of being BRUTALLY honest. Sometimes they can be mean just for the heck of it. My friend Michael looked at me one day and said, "You look fat in that shirt." I laughed it off, but then he confused me by saying, "Oh, I was just kidding." What kind of a joke is that? I could understand if he were genuinely trying to give me some fashion advice, but he just said that to be mean! Perhaps your associate is envious of you and is doing everything in his power to bring you down. I wouldn't even try to deal with him if I were you. I'd ignore him completely.

For my next trick, I shall make you all disappear.

I just love it when behaviour is explained with some crazy explanation sourced from deep within the psyche. They never make sense, and they always come off as something the unpopular kid would say. It's a cop-out is what it is. As for Saqqara, yeah he did go a bit far, and it's admirable how kind you are in return.

I too had an incident with my father similar to yours, but I was the one pissing off the other. And I can say first hand, sometimes, even if somebody tells you to stop, it can come off as a human nature thing, and is all good fun. I know I didn't realize my dad was truly irritated by a few things I was doing until he blew up in a fit of road rage. We had a talk, and we got it resolved. Sometimes people don't understand that no means no, because in today's society, in many cases it just doesn't. Sorry you and your roomie are at odds. :(

I should be ashamed of myself.

This post was edited by Aynjell on Jun 13, 2005.