Reading andromacha's journal

I am feeling very depressed lately, and tired too. Tomorrow I will be having the long dreaded Germanic philology exam, and I feel like I am not ready for it. I have been studying and studying for months, and still this stuff goes over my head.

My mom keeps saying to stay positive, and that maybe I will be lucky and he'll ask the things I know and not the ones I don't know. It's just that this guy is quite lunatic. Last time I went to hear some exams, and he was kinda nice; he didn't fail a girl who said that in old Germanic there weren't Os (in order to explain the passage from the indoeuropean o to the germanic a in a word). That girl was quite a disaster, yet she got a 24!

The time before that though, he didn't seem so nice. A girl who was in there must have said something really riduculous, and he started shouting and insulting her and threw away her university book. God I got so scared!! I don't know what I would do if he did something like that to me, but I can easily see that I would probably burst in tears.

In the meanwhile I am starting feeling the classical symptoms of the day before an exam: nausea, stomachaches, headaches, shivers, a general feeling of anxiety and most of all I have nightmares during the night or as during a nap that I might be taking in order to rest a bit.

The truth is that even if I can save myself with all those grammar rules and evne the more argumentative stuff about the history, I am in deep trouble when it comes to the translation. He made it in class; it is a part of the old saxon poem Heliand. We have to translate it from old saxon to Italian of course, and he made the translation in class... but hell it makes no sense! I tried and looked on the internet or at the library for something more decent than this, but I didn't find anything at all. Even a translation to old saxon to modern German would have done, because it would have surely been helpful in the points where I am not sure what it means, but nothing...

So what can I say... tomorrow if you have the bad luck of being away at 8:30 (+ 1 GMT) pray for me, because I will be there taking the exam. I just pray he doesn't ask me the translation. Sometimes he forgets about it, so all I can do is pray. Oh and also pray that I passed the German test :P tomorrow I will know the results. I would really love it if I had passed it even with the lowest grade, as that test, the grammar part in particular, was a real mess.

Anyway, I think I will get back with my nose inside my notes now, and hope for the best. Keep your fingers crossed, and tomorrow I will let you know how it went.

Un bacio è un'apostrofo rosa scritto tra le parole "ti amo".