Reading Hardballkid's journal

Not here, not now. Please! That was my the other night as I had that horrible gastro discomfort that usually only occurs when the disease is upon me. I thought it might pass, I was wrong. It lasted all day until that night when I sat up and made a quick dash to the sink as I puked everything I had in me out.

So, here I am. Finally ate something, which will hopefully stay down confirming what I would love to think; that night was a fluke. I pray to God thats what it was. I cannot deal with this now. Im starting college in a month and a half, I have a full-time job working up to 45 hours a week, and much more. Plus, I cant afford to lose anymore weight. And if I have relapsed with my disease then all Ill be doing is losing weight. Not to mention being pumped up with 5 medications 5x's a day and that 4 out of 5 episodes mean a trip to the hospital.

Somethings not right, I know that. I dont have the energy I use to, Im not as hungry anymore, and Ive had plenty of quesy stomachs.

I can't afford it- Monetarily, emotinally, and especially physically.

Now are ye undeceived! Welcome, again, my children, to the communion of your race!

I have no idea what you have. If it is something like Crohn's Disease, which my sister had, I extend my sympathies...if it is something else, I extend my sympathies as well. I swear by acupuncture, and from reading your posts thoughtfully in the recent past, I gather that you eat very healthily, and try to treat your body as well as you can. It sounds like you have to...

I would just say: "Go see your acupuncturist." Alternative health-care seems to be more preventative than the primarily palliative care that comes through Traditional medecine. Obviously, if you need IVs, surgical intervention, or life support, or stomach pumping, or some such drastic measure then Traditional medecine is the way to go. However, with something that comes along and knocks the stuffings out of you with no warning, which from your description, sounds like what this is... something like acupuncture is an excellent treatment option. It may not help in a crisis, but can possibly prevent recurrences from ever happening, which at the very least, is peace of mind. Some insurance companies even pay for it these days. Just a thought. Please take it for what it is worth. And good luck to you.

If mountain goats like living at high elevations, why do none live in high rise apartment buildings?

Yes rosyxxx, you hit right it on the nail. It is Crohns Disease from which I have suffered greatly, and due to a slight relapse, am suffering now- however not like before. It happened very quicky- like over the weekend- where my appetite was gone, my energy was drained and my old disdain for food set in.

This week has been a little difficult in dealing with it. At first and even slightly right now I have said to myself that its not the disease just a combination of a very insane heat wave and just many hours at work. Whichever it is- Im treating it like life and death. I have restricted my diet to just about liquids, protein shakes, and -as soon as I buy some- baby food.

Only if things get desperate, which I dont see happening, will I go to conventional medicine. As for my acupuncturist- not at the moment. Going that route is a heavy commitment which I cureently am unable to seize. I still do, however, have some of my "special teas" left over that I could always sip on from my last treatment session.

Until than, I must just watch myself closely and take things day by day. Honestly, the last day or so I have felt much better energy and hunger wise- hopefully, by the grace of God- it will continue.

Thanks for your whole hearted concern, best wishes and advice. I hope and it seems that your sister is doing well with it since you speak of it in the past tense- I hope that will forever continue.

Well, as for now, I must go make use of the blender.

Now are ye undeceived! Welcome, again, my children, to the communion of your race!

I'm glad you mentioned the "special teas" thing. I've been nursing a cold and bacterial infection, and the acupuncture just isn't in the budget for me either this week. But until you mentioned the 'tea', I had forgotten that I have some extra of the tea she gives me for throat infections. The combination of that and an antibiotic seems to work very well.

I wish health care was free, don't you? If you just had to pay while you were well, like people did with Indian shamans. I guess they figured if you were sick, the doc wasn't doing his job, and it was on the house. Oh well.

And yes, my sister's Chrohns Disease is it bay. She just has to live like a nun to stay well. Tough illness. And I hear that drug 'gastrochrome' was taken off the market, because there weren't enough sick people who needed it to make it profitable. But you know.

Good luck with it, I hear it can be a bitch, and I've seen it in action. It's a hard card to be dealt. My sympathies.

If mountain goats like living at high elevations, why do none live in high rise apartment buildings?