Reading rosyxxx's journal

I must preface this by saying that I have had absolutely no plastic surgery...

You know, I've never really looked my age, always looked about 10 years younger...until the last four years. Sometimes people would guess me close to my age, and others, they'd be maybe five years off. But lately, as in the last four to five days, I have had some bizarre experiences, as in these sorts of things haven't happened in half a decade.

A man at work swore I was not even 23. He got mad about it, and said I was lying. I met a few women out the other night, and they thought I was barely 21. I got carded at every bar I went to, which doesn't happen much anymore, and one guy was quite skeptical about giving me my ID back. He said it didn't even look like me. Then, I went to my friend's 50th birthday party, and while I was busy thinking she was 40 and gave her a card as such, which made her beam from ear to ear... two people came up and asked how old I was... they wondered why I sounded so educated, but looked barely past 23. Then, I went to the pharmacy to pick up two prescriptions. Neither of them were narcotics, so it wasn't crucial to have my ID, but the pharmacist was looking on the computer at my customer information and asked to see my ID. He said he didn't think it was me. He stared at it for quite some time. He grilled me on my birthdate and SS#. At work tonight, one of the waitresses thought I was somebody new. She swore it wasn't me. Two nights in a row, two of my managers just looked at me intently, and one said: "You look really nice, but different. Something's different. Did you dye your hair?" I haven't. Not since last month. And the guy at the grocery store who keeps trying to hit on me, walked right past me without even recognizing me yesterday morning, which never happens. He usually corners me while my frozen foods begin to melt.

If it were only men, or women who I knew were gay who had responded in such a way, I would think they just wanted to get into my pants; but, it wasn't. Both men and women who are straight were saying this, and some of them looked at me with such sincere, lingering disbelief. It wasn't like they were just being flattering or polite. Some didn't recognize me. Some were ready to kick me out of the bars for having a fake ID, and others just looked dumbfounded.

I'm not exactly sure what I attribute this too...except, truly, at it's core, I think it is the reduction in my stress level...and yet, that doesn't make sense, because last month was horribly stressful. Y'all don't even know. There is a secret I am keeping. Last month was awful, and I was stressed to new heights. Maybe it was that my friends and family were all there to help. I don't know. All I know is, I think I better bring my ID if I go to buy alcohol...and if I want to go out for my birthday at the end of this month, I damn well better have gone to get my license picture renewed, as my license is expiring.

Apparently, it no longer looks like me anyway. I'm not sure what happened, but I like it.

I expect that the downside of this is that I may get traffic tickets more often again, and women may be quite evil to me, and people may condescend even more, thinking I am just some teeniebopper; but I hope not. I hope people aren't ignorant about it...because along with this reduction in my apparent age has seemed to come a renewed vitality. Energy from nowhere. I love it! I feel like I could conquer the world again. I don't think I want to trade either benefit, even if people are rude about it.

My question is: What happens if this were to continue, and I were to look even younger? Would I have to falsify my license to a younger age, just to be able to use it? *you have to understand, this is partially tongue-in-cheek*...I don't quite believe all of this myself. It's so strange. I am reminded though, of Tom Robbins book Jitterbug Perfume, where the central couple finds the secret to immortality, and they have to move from place to place before people find out that they don't ever age. Before they get stoned, or prosecuted, or burned as witches, heretics and vampires.

I am certainly none of the above. But this all seems a bit magical. And then again...it might be because I no longer drink alcohol, nor soda, nor coffee, very little chocolate...I eat primarily vegetarian, even my ice cream is soy, I drink boatloads of water, tea, wheatgrass juice, take evening primrose oil capsules, take Chinese herbs, get accupuncture weekly, do Yoga, and chant for two hours a day. I take baths as often as possible, just to relax. I try not to dwell on things that make me angry, or upset, and when I do...I try not to continue to obsess over them too much.

Maybe it is all just the stress reduction techniques...but I wonder. I wonder. Could it be that chant I started five days ago? For the very purpose of people being blinded to anything but the beauty within your soul? Does that mean my soul is that of a young woman in her twenties? I'll buy that. I'm pretty immature at times, but I do care very much about other people too. I must say, this is all quite intrigueing. I wonder what will happen next.

My mind is made up...not like my bed, which is a mess.

Not so strange really. If you change the inside the outside begins to respond.

I have this cd set that I've been slowly working my way through, much like the slow walking through of the ancient secret of the flower of life books, due to the very nature of what is contained within each thing.

The Cd set is called magical mind magical body. Most excellet so far.
The speaker is a doctor who was born in India and went to school there and then came to the us to finish his schooling, and among the list of his expertese is his time spent as the cheif of medicine at a hospital in maryland, now it's hard for me to remember the details of the city and exactly what the titles were, but I can pull the cd and listen again and tell you his name and all the details of his career.
It's all very easy to verify.

But I believe that it's not so important to remember his name or the list of his accomplisments as is what I have learned from listening.

Your body is in a constant state of regenration. Who you were a month ago is not who you are now.
He goes into the science of this, and there is scientific proof of what he says, it's not just some wild off the wall idea that this guy came up with.
But what he says is based on fact.
Which is good. It helps the brain to accept what is being said more redily knowing that the things being said are provable.

From what he said, about the body completely changing, all the time, everytime you exhale you exhale lots of cells and when you inhale you inhale lots of cells of other people.
You and me and everyone on this planet have cells in our body from people who are no longer on this planet in human form.

Now a side thought, if you consider the word disease and break it down, dis and then ease, you end up considering that in the state of dis ease, your mind is telling your body something.
Every time you stress out over something your mind is activly telling your body something.
Your gut may be telling you something different, but your mind which has the comprehension to make the decision to be fearful, angry, in love, out of love, sad, happy etc.
The thoughts we think have the power to affect our health.
The words we speak have the power to affect our health.
Two very imporant things to what you are experiencing now.
By doing what you have been doing you have been speaking life and health into your body, via your thoughts and words.

Take this one step further. The human body as it stands now is capable of living for 120 years.
Many people don't make it that far and the ones who get relativly close, 100 years and beyond, have something in common,
and if you read what they have had to say on the subject you'll find the answers very much the same.
They had a long and relativly happy life.

Now you and I both know someone living today that has been alive for that long will have seen war, famine, disease, the rise and fall of alot of things.
There is 100% chance that they have lost people close to them, many infact, but those things didn't do the kind of damage that it can and often does to people.
Why?

I have a theory based on the things I'm learning and my experience of why this exists and it's possible to reverse the aging process in the human body.
It's this: when you rid your mind of negative and distructive things, and you replace them with life and positive things, they cause change and regenration of cells.
The new cells are healthier than the old ones. Younger. More resillaint to outside forces that are distructive, such as stress.

The changes you've been experiencing are a great evidence for the discussion on knowledge belief emotion and logic that I've found my self in the middle of, it's in the phillosphy forum.

Another thought just occured to me, it's about this: if the spirit and soul inside the body is healthy then the body itself reflects that.
Haven't you ever been around someone who looks so much younger than there age, and at the same time been around people who are cronicalogical young but look 20 to 30 years older?
That right there I think is evidence of what I've been learning and the theory on aging I've come to.

If your interested in more information about the magical mind magical body stuff, I'll pull the cd and write it down and pass it on so you can check it out.

:)

The thoughts we think have the power to affect our health.
The words we speak have the power to affect our health.

I see. It's so simple. It is. Everyday for the past 4 months, I have been saying outloud, or chanting quietly what would in English translate as these various mantras:

Through each of the seven chakras, in the place where the celestials dwell, where those enlightened souls have attained enlightenment, please confer that upon those of us upon earth now...

O magnificent one, who bestows wealth, good fortune and happiness, I salute you.

O fulfiller of desires, I salute you.

I am divine love.

The jewel is in the lotus of the heart.

In that place in the heart where there is beauty, I salute you.

Now I know that I don't always feel that I live up to the high standards I have set for myself, and the soul that dwells within...but the sanskrit words run through my mind constantly...I can be talking to someone and hear every word they are saying, while my mind continuously replays: I am divine love, I am divine love, I am divine love, I am divine love...over and over, as a background noise.

This alone, seems to create resilience...but what you said about how it's possible to reverse the aging process...well, I believe it. Wholeheartedly. Yoga, for one, has been long touted as developing youthful qualities. And the Five Tibetans are supposed to definitively reverse the aging process. I think where it works the best, is when your goal is simply to enjoy life and to make yourself and everyone else as happy as possible.

Negative thoughts can be more powerful in the shortrun, but they eat you up inside. In the early stages of this practice, I had to walk away from people who were just spewing disbelief in what I was doing, and who argued against it. I could literally feel my throat closing up on me, when I sat there and listened to them mocking me... or people who just talked about every single bad thing in their life, like we've all done at times, and I've done as well. I had to walk away, and remind myself that eventually I could listen to their bad days, when I had the strength to be able to listen without taking on their misery. But, even to a certain extent these days, I have to be careful. I can only take so much, or I start slipping back into old behaviour. It's funny, but I think the human animal is conditioned <rather than designed> to gravitate towards drama and misery on a certain level, and we have to fight the urge. I mean, look at how many people post in the 'What Sucks' forum, and how many read the stuff and rate it. I do it as well.

I think for now, I've needed to swing a little more to the positive side, just to balance out all of the years of negativity. I already see that I am better able to deal with other people's misery without having their shit eat me up in inside. And yet, I find myself a little reluctant sometimes to bitch about things, thinking that I don't need to get that steamed, and then realize, as I have lately that there are definitely times when it is appropriate to be steamed. It's just that those times have more potential to draw back the old behaviour of dwelling on the misery all of the time, as opposed to focusing on the silver lining in bad situations. That, of course, goes without saying... The work I have been doing is obviously good for both me, and those around me. But, I need to keep doing the work, so it sticks for good.

P.S. Yes, I would love to find out what the title is for the CD set, and who authored it. :-)

My mind is made up...not like my bed, which is a mess.

This post was edited by rosyxxx on Sep 10, 2005.

Ok here is the name of the CD: Magical Mind, Magical body.
The doctors name is Deepak Chopra.

Here is the name of the publisher Nightinglae Conant

This information he presents is based on, get this, a 6,000 year old secret of longevity.

I have the phone number on the cd, I don't know if it's still the same, but I'll e-mail that to you.

When I got this a few years back I put it aside, as my life was too chaotic to pay attention, but if I remember right there was a book that came with it that told about the four body types and the foods that best serve each particular body type.

...another key...:)