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Sep 29, 2005 17:26 # 39128

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Boyfriend Mostly

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Today was pretty boring I woke up in my boyfriends bed after quite a fun night out last night! he had to be at work at 6 and we cuddled for ages so he got there at 7:30 but he told me it was worth.

Then I went home at about 10:00 and its really really sad but I have mostly been sat infront of this computer the whole time.
Chatting with a friend of mine about everything and nothing! I'm supposed to be doing lots of cleaning at home but kind find myself motivated to even get up unless its for food or drinks!

Because boyfriend had to leave so early he didnt come out clubbing with me last night but gave me his house key..I love that he didnt mind, he even said to me "Look I'm not going out tonight but I know you wanted to so I'll go to bed and at 2am I'll come pick you up and then we can go to bed ok?" There was no way of course I would let him do that it would have been so selfish of me. However I wanted to go out as I planned earlier on that day to meet up with friends so I managed to get a lift of a friend back to his house! He was happy with this!

But this morning I woke up feeling really depressed again. He knew something wasn't right he kept asking me. I told him I was tired. I couldnt believed I used the excuse that people use for so many different situations, mostly just for the sake of saying something..."How are you?" - "Fine I'm really tired though" YAWN!!!!!

I text him at work explaining that I was sorry and I have just been feeling a bit low ...I included, 'It's not you at all in fact your the only great thing in my life at the moment!'

Tomorrow he is taking me out for dinner tomorrow night as we have been seeing each other for 2 months now....feels like years! I love him so much...I thought I have been in love before but now I can see it was just infactuation! My mum tells me how she dated a number of guys and had been engaged before she met my father but when they met she knew she would spend the rest of her life with him..now I can relate to it! I know he loves me he tells me almost everyday! We have only recently started admitting it to each other but I think we knew it of each other before that. I know how much he cares about me but I do wonder what he see's in our future whether he see's us as I do..getting married starting a familly..and spending the rest of our lifes together!

It sounds perfect its really not! My Mum doesnt realise that I stay at my boyfriends house when she has said that although I can as its my choice she doesnt want me to..so to keep her happy I lie to her. This is risky and I know that if she finds out or if tell her I'm going to stay at his then she will take away the car that is mine but she owns it.
It shouldnt be too long for it not to be a problem! Shame I have to lie, to do what I want at 18 isnt it mum!

Tonight he is going to band practice so I'm staying in! I need to stay in I want to go out but I know that mum wants me in and also I have seen him everyday this week so the occasional break is healty!

Can't think what to say...

Sep 29, 2005 17:33 # 39129

salmon * mindlessly drivels...

Re: Boyfriend Mostly

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"Look I'm not going out tonight but I know you wanted to so I'll go to bed and at 2am I'll come pick you up and then we can go to bed ok?"

My boyfriend always puts me in postitions like that wher you wnat to say yes as it would be great but if you do, ur a really selfish person! i know there trying to be cute but i think its really annoying. but your relationships seems to be very loving and your very lucky! hold on to him there not everywhere like people say!

believe the unbelieveable

Sep 30, 2005 16:56 # 39163

ginsterbusch *** replies...

Re: Boyfriend Mostly

Tomorrow he is taking me out for dinner tomorrow night as we have been seeing each other for 2 months now....feels like years! I love him so much...I thought I have been in love before but now I can see it was just infactuation!

It's just like that, to me and my beloved one. Upcoming month it'll be one year we're together. And I think positively into future - we'll stay together. Life brightens if you finally recognize you are loving the most important person in your life more and more every day.

I know how much he cares about me but I do wonder what he see's in our future whether he see's us as I do..getting married starting a familly..

With 18, IMHO that would be a too-rushed decision. I'm going to seriously think about these matters in 5 years, after I've turned 30. Children should have parents who not only care about them, but also are financially already out of the deep water. My beloved one is 18, too, and doesnt want to lose her freedom so early.

But the

and spending the rest of our lifes together!

part is a good one - that's just the same with us. :)

My personal goals are to get a job or apprenticeship nearby her site and move together with her, finally. Right now I gonna stick with a job and flat share in the same area I'm living in (Germany > Bavaria > Munich, to be exact), but this should provide me with all I need for our shared future.

Good luck to you then,
cu, w0lf.

Multiple exclamation marks are a sure sign for a diseased mind!

This post was edited by ginsterbusch on Sep 30, 2005.

Oct 01, 2005 01:31 # 39174

shakylegs * replies...

Explanation

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Thankyou for your comments, I agree that when you recognise it you really do brighten up!

With 18, IMHO that would be a too-rushed decision.

should have parents who not only care about them, but also are financially already out of the deep water.

You may have misunderstood what I as trying to say here... I also feel that children need much more permentant and financial support and i wouldnt want to get married until i have spent years with him...and children even years after that... but I do feel that I will spend the rest of my life with him...therefore in years to come I forsee marriage and kids..way in the future but still apart of it! - I simply mentioned in the first post because I'm curiuos as to what he might forsee...but I wouldn't rush into anything so seriuous.

what does IMHO mean? I'm sure someone ahs told me before but I have forgotten!

shaky!!
xxxxx

Can't think what to say...

Oct 01, 2005 16:02 # 39188

andromacha *** replies...

Re: Explanation

what does IMHO mean?

It means In My Humble Opinion :)

Un bacio un'apostrofo rosa scritto tra le parole "ti amo".


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