Reading Douche's journal

Just sat here..listening to Muse..such awesome music!

I have been stuck in this really wierd place recently...I'm so bored at the moment everyday is exactly the same untill I get out of the house in the evenings. Everyday just drags on an di wake up when ever I like with nothing to worry about and then I spend the afternnon on the computer or wacthing TV then i get ready to go out.....go out..see friends or boyfriend..stay out or come home..go to bed..and then it starts over again.

I know it seems like I live a really easy life..but I dont I'm so worried about the future. With no real secure qualification to help me on my way and no will power to get to college or get a job. Just saying all this make me realise even more taht its my own fault. But I'm still going to complain about it all.

Today I spoke to a really old friend of mine..infact I managed to see him over the internet. He hasnt changed a bit but I told him he had. I think I said that cause I wanted him to think that I was interested or even remebered the very distant passed we shared! Seems silly now but it made sense earlier! But it does feel good as I remember what I felt for him and compare it with those feeling that I have for boyfriend..which is so strong and better! I know you could say the feelings would be different as they are different circumstances...but the difference is worth what I have now...although it would be nice to be back in the past to feel that different way once more if only for a few seconds..Yet I'd choose this relationship anyday!

My beloved twin is returning to me in three weeks..I can herdly wait.

That is all!

I almost had you