Reading Douche's journal

Has anybody ever left you for a short while, and when they return you follow them around like a child follows their hero…

I knew he was on his way home so I planned to stay inside so when he came in I could give him a big hug. I found myself pacing up and down the kitchen glancing out the window every five minutes and any time I heard a car drive past. When I saw the car coming up my drive way I grabbed some random shoes, they weren’t even mine, and pegged it down the drive to the car. I could see him smiling too! My hands naturally went straight to my mouth and I gasped when I saw his face my beautiful ‘chubs’. The tears started pouring when he opened the door and stepped out of the car and stood there with arms wide open. I reached forward and embraced a long and meaningful hug. We laughed and smiled huge smiles, which alone expressed our happiness but as well we told each other how happy we were to see each other again.

Maybe it’s because we shared a womb for 9 months or because we are just the best of friends but there is such a strong love and connection between us. A couple of weeks ago I felt so angry at him for ever leaving me. Now it’s better as he is home and safe and the same as I remember him. He has been in the air for ten hours so he is sleeping now. Later we are going for a meal so he can meet boyfriend… although it feels like they have already met as I talk to boyfriend about him all the time and boyfriend knows him in a way.

This break up we have just had has inspired me to write some notes, emotions when he left, emotions while he was away, memories that were provoked in his absence and emotions fro his return. Thank you for his safe return.

douche

I almost had you

This post was edited by Douche on Oct 25, 2005.