Reading Douche's journal

What do you do when your boyfriend doesnt come to a meal with you when invited becuase he wants to get drugs off his dealer before he leaves to go on holiday? Even though his meeting has planned before the meal. The meal is also very important to me and I want him to be there. I know I shouldnt let it bother me because, but its hard. Boyfriend also said to me that its becuasse he wants to see him before he goes and I cant help thinking that its just an excuse. Also boyfriend said he was leaving tomorrow, but I'm sure I heard him say next monday on the phone.

I'm really quite furious about the whole thing, and this is where it begins. I take things way out of what they really are, I get jealous! Thats simply it! Its started happening over a few things recently... I dont want to feel bad but I just think the worst with everything and its really not fair on boyfriend because e is so innocent even with what he thinks its all good and he never tries or even thinks about upseting me! But he does because I let it.

I'm also enraged at something else, even more boring than this but makes me want to leave, I'm going for a drive to let off some steam!

douche

I almost had you

This post was edited by Douche on Oct 25, 2005.