Reading baffled's journal

She has the typical features of a beautiful woman. I didn't think even for a brief moment she could ever be mine. And I felt ok in that place, I accepted it. She sat opposite me in a lecture. Our eyes crossed paths a couple of times and each time I froze. She approached me several days later. I asked her for her number, she wrote her name as Kat. A series of encounters later lead me to believe she liked me. I knew I could have easily fallen in love with her.....She told me to meet her at 6, it was my mates birthday and we hit the pub at mid day, my insecurities smuthered me and I couldnt bare the thought of her seeing me. My heartbeat increased as time passed and I only had my drink to comfort me. She didnt talk to me with the same emotion again. Now everytime I see her I think of how I threw away the opportunity away. A pearl back to the sea. She crept into my mind a thousand times over the summer and the thought still returns, each one as painful as the last. Wondering if I were born to walk alone. I yearn for the opportunity to arise again.

This post was edited by baffled on Dec 07, 2005.