Reading Hardballkid's journal

Just a journal...

My heart aches every moment for what could of been
a lifetime filled with love & happiness
but it's only my regrets that I carry time & time again
I'm wrapped up in my own emotions & completely trapped
In a box of nails and suffocated emotions
no way out except for one
an obstacle I could never imagine climbing
one of unimaginable heights
one full of traps & ambushes
ready to jump upon a lost soul and blackened heart...

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But you were my anchor
and the rope that will carry me upward
but I still proceed with caution
for a mending heart can only take so many blows
and a life with you can only be so long
however, its a chance I'm willing to take
for without you,
I know I will forever ache.

or...

+Alternate Ending+

and you werent near
thats what I always feared
you left me in that dungeon
you committed me to despair
now, forever stuck in the devils lair
living in darkness has brought upon me such terror
These demons inside of me scratch at my soul
Now, everything of mine you have completly stole.

Both true...
Both unforgivable.

Now are ye undeceived! Welcome, again, my children, to the communion of your race!

Our hearts
converged
today separated
but still connected
we share our memories
we know what could have been
we failed to see
what we should have seen
hindsight is 20/20
our path was clear
yet we were blind
tomorrow we'll make the same mistakes
and we will never learn