Reading MelMel's journal

** Began writing this on 13/12, finished it today... I've been busy.

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I got my final results today. last night i couldnt sleep.

breathe mel, just breathe.

tossing and turning in my bed, finally feeling the oppression of the red sheets i lay between. funny, i remember the way the colour sang to me when i bought them, and how i could feel it holding me as i fell asleep, protecting me from my fears, enveloping me in warmth.

the heat was constant and preyed on my mind, found and tormented my anxieties, until the pounding of my heart was matched with the pounding in my head.

i finally fall into a fitful burst of sleep at 5am. at 6:30 am my phone chirps me awake, letting me know that my future is a mere sequence of buttons away.

menu, *, yes

it's all there in front of me

International Studies: A, A, A+

Further Maths: A, B+, A+

Theatre Studies: A+, B, A+

i can't believe i aced the written exam. The B for my monologue performance is disappointing, but i'd redied myself for it, so i continued to scroll.

Literature: A+, A+, B+

i'm stunned at my B+ for the exam. surely they realised i wrote on a text i hadn't even studied in class?

Art: A+, B+, A

History, Revolutions: A, A, D+

the D+ is momentarily crippling. i've never recieved a grade like that before. why now, why did it have to happen when it actually counts. i'm suddenly angry at myself for not having done more. for only completeing about 30% of the exam.

and then i see my ENTER score. my final score. the number that is given to universities across the country for them to decide my future with.

87.4

Good Lord. I'm completely stunned. thats about 10 points more than i was expecting. that's a high enough score to get me into my desired university course without any special consideration for the actions of those parentals of mine.

For a moment, I must admit, I am dissappointed. Under normal circumstances I know my score would have been around 93, as a minimum. But I tell myself it's not my fault. And I'm happy.

I feel proud of myself.

The next day my GAT (General Achievement Test) results arrive. I scored 45 in Written Commication (top 2% of the state) and in the top 8% for Maths & Sciences as well as Humanities & the Arts. Whilst I wish my school & exam results were as good as the GAT results, i'm still very, very pleased.

I survived high school, and did it in style.

-Mel :D

Look at me! I'm a prostitute robot from the future!

This post was edited by MelMel on Dec 15, 2005.

Congratulations mel!!!

*lotsa big hugs*

make sure to remind me to buy you a big bowl of ice cream when I get back (its all i can afford when I'm in australia unless i go back to working at la porchettas)

still

*BIG HUGS*

Have you thought of Uni's yet?

Oooh, ice cream... mmmm...

Well, then the coffees are on me.

I was going to do the VCA Lighting thing, but their course is appalling, so should be doing Arts at Monash (Clayton Campus) all things going well. basic plan is to do first and second year, then defer for a year to travel and work, before resuming third year studies, and heading off to NIDA in Sydney for a year after that to study a post-grad in Lighting Design.

It's MelMel's Five Year Plan!

Which La Porchetta were you working at?

-Mel

Look at me! I'm a prostitute robot from the future!