Reading harold_maude's journal

October 1 of last year I was in an accident. It wasn't my fault. There were witnesses.

If the driver of the other car hadn't been in such a hurry to get around the corner (she saw me comming
and so instead of slowing down and letting me get through the intersection and then going,
she sped up to about 45 miles an hour. Her thinking was she could get around the corner before I got to
the intersection.) the accident wouldn't have happened.

Now my insurance rates have gone up almost $40 a month because I was in that accident. I called
to find out why they had gone up if the accident wasn't my fault.
I found out that I have to get the police report and take it to the insurance company and if the report
has been filed in the state captiol, then I have to get ahold of the state captiol and have them send
a copy of the report to the insurance company.

I don't know what happened to the girl who was driving. She wasn't insured. And she was driving a borrowed
car from a friend who lives in another state, and the guy had let his insurance laps on the car that she was driving.

My insurance which is already expensive and takes a good chunk out of my income, isn't enough to take
care of the damage which includes a bent axle so I'm basicly stuck with something that I can't get fixed.

I heard someone call insurance, just in case something happens, instead of insurance.

The guy I talked to said it used to be innocent until proven guilty. Now your guilty until you can prove
your innocence.

I'm looking at a huge hospital bill as well for the few hours I spent in the phsych ward. If the people here had
listened and the guy who is truely responsible for making me so angry because he wouldn't leave me alone and
take no for an answer, that friday wouldn't have happened.
If the guy who brought him into the house wouldn't have been so caught up in getting another roommate in here
so our rent would be a few dollars cheaper, in other words, greedy, and we would have all had a chance to meet this
guy ahead of time, he would never have been here.
It doesn't take long with this guy to figure out something isn't quite right.

About 6 years ago I had major surgery. 16 months later I had to have the surgery again because the first doctor
didn't put mesh over the place he repaired.
Although he charged me for it.
The second doctor did, but I got double charged for everything for that surgery. And that I found out is perfectly
legal in this country.
You get charged by the doctor for the surgery, and then by the hospital for the same surgery, because when the doctor
does the surgery the hospital looks at him as an employee, how ever temporary.

If the first doctor had done his job right, the second surgery wouldn't have had to be done.

So what have I learned from all of this? That in this world that very often it doesn't matter if you do the right thing
or try to, the person who does bad shit often never has to take responsiblity. And you get screwed in the ass for someone
elses screw ups.
You get to pay for their shit.

What I've seen in this country is a larger picture of these kinds of things. The goverment does stuff that is screwing up
alot of people's lives.
And we get the tab.
And that is screwed up.

The guy who brought this recient problem into the house had surgery last night. His gal bladder went bad.
He survived. I found myself, when I herd about it, not feeling any kind of compassion for the man.
Every time I've accomidated this man I get screwed. I've lost work because of this man, and the asshole he brought
in here and then refused to listen as I was telling him and one of the other roommates that there was a serious
problem with this guy not leaving me alone, and wouldn't do anything about it.
There are other things as well that have happened.
But thoes haven't ended up costing me as much as this recient crap.

I'm glad he survived. But I don't care how long it takes him to heal, or how much work he looses because of this,
and how much financial crap he has to go through because of this.
Or even if the company he works for fires him because of this, and he has to go find another job.
I don't even care if he ends up homeless, although he's got family here so that won't happen to him.
They will take him in.

But he loves this place, and the way things are in the world, I could easily see him getting fired over this.
Especially in this state. A right to work state. It should be called a right to get fired state because an employer
can fire you on a whim.
No good or valid reason.

In many states it's that way. And us, the american public has to just go on, and try to keep from ending up
on the streets.
While the corporations and the businesses keep doing things that are screwing with our enviorment,
the goverment supports the corporations and businesses by continuing to reissue business liscenes to
corporations which violate enviormental acts.
Like dumping raw sewage into rivers, crap like that.

The senator who was drunk while driving and killed a guy on a motorcycle and only got a hundred days jail time.
This isn't the first time a senator killed someone and got off lightly.
The experiemnts payed for by the goverment that have ruined lives, because life is expendable to the goverment.
Congress giving themselves pay raises while the rest of us can barely afford the tab of living in this country.
And lots of other wonderful things that keep going on, and we the people have to keep paying the tab.

The only hope I can hang on to is that at some point it will all collapse and there will be no way to reconstruct it.
All of it makes me want to move to another country.
And get out of here, while my car is still working.
I love this land, but this land isn't the land of the free anymore, and when it sends men to fight against a people
when there is no other reason than there is oil and money at the bottom line, then this country is nothing more
than a degenerate self indulgent cruel place to try to live.

But I don't suppose any place else is much better. That's the way of the world in this time in history I suppose.
People who get in power who only want control and power will do terrible things, and let terrible things happen,
and support the criminals who commit them.
And the rest of us, well we get to suffer needlessly and pick up the tab for all the loss of life, loss of freedom
and anything else that comes up.

Is it any wonder then, with all of this, that there is a growing number of people who are so angry and so disgusted
by it all that they have gone haywire in someway.
No one is listening, and if they are, they arn't doing a thing.

So much for a wonderful future. If the future is now, it sucks big time and it's only going to get worse.

It only looks that way because your standing on your head.