Reading Hardballkid's journal

Bertrand Russell once said, "I am an accidental collocation of atoms." On the intellectual level, he purported to view himself in a sheer materialistic way; but in his daily life he did not act like a random collocation of atoms, but like an entity with purpose and meaning in life. He brushed his teeth like everyone else, took his place in society, communicated in speaking and writing, and demanded rationality of a reality which he claimed was non-rational.

That, I must say, is schizoid.

His intellectual beliefs, in my view, are more consistent with the gibbering maniac who is no more rational than the physical world which 'accidentally' produced him. I would expect such a person (if behaving consistently) to be more likely to behave in a manner that was random, chaotic, meaningless, and purposeless. I would expect him to be the person who goes on a killing spree culminating in suicide, or perhaps the person who obliviously sits in the corner all day and honestly believes himself to be a potato.

I'm glad I have a purpose, whatever it may be.

Right now, that purpose seems to be staying up all night, studying/reading/writing, sleeping 3-5 hours, getting up, going to work, and classes in between. But this is my career for now. Im a student. What makes it more difficult is trying to be a successful one at that.

College life has its perks, of course. Its just hard to say what they exactly are seeing as how I know Im going to be up all night studying for a test and essay tomorrow.

As for now, I must go ingest some caffeine, brush my teeth, and and take my place in the library- where all the other rational sleep-depraved individuals go.

I might be tired- but I aint no potato.

Now are ye undeceived! Welcome, again, my children, to the communion of your race!