Reading Love and Lifesense

Wow! My friend just got back from Cambodia, and she had this gift for me. She had asked me what I wanted, and I said just bring me some pebbles from the ocean, from a beach. I love rocks.

She went to a shop and found this beautiful rough-hewn and round piece of amethyst. She made me close my eyes while she laid it in my hand. I had no idea what it was, but it was vibrating like crazy! She asked: "Can you feel it?" I said Yes!!!?

It will become one of my most cherished gifts, right next to the rock that a dolphin tossed to me nine years ago...I promised Moon that I would look up what amethyst was used for in crystal healing in my Melody book "Love is in the Earth".

Here is what it says:

It clears the aura and stabilizes and transmutes any dysfunctional energy located within ones body. Amethyst also bestows stability, strength, invigoration, and peace; the peace being the perfect peace which was present prior to birth. It is also a "stone of meditation", being excellent in conducting the energy of calm and peacefulness to help one to both enter and maintain the state. Amethyst can be used to protect against psychic attacks; the energy of the attack being transmitted to the universe after it's transformation into loving, positive energy. It is "warm and cuddly", as well as regal and ruling. By directing love to the structure of the amethyst, the energy is increased by orders of magnitude and returned to the region in which the amethyst is located. Consciously holding the amethyst allows one to activate the energy to produce realignment of the energy bodies, while providing for stimulus to rectify dis-association between the aspects of cause and effect. It has, since historic times, been used to encourage and support sobriety. It is an excellent stone for one who is attempting to find freedom from addictive personalities (oneself, or another). It can help cellular disorders to reajust and realign in order to eliminate distressful conditions.

Whoah. I gotta tell her this...she'll be so pleased. Holding it in my hand already makes me happier. It seems to be not only infused with the love she gave in giving it, but something more powerful. I hold it and feel loved. I've had so many friends give me crystals lately. And yesterday, my love Isis complemented my ametrine, amethyst and citrine necklace. It is supposed to radiate love. I don't know, but I've felt so much love from people in the past few days. It's so nice. Just kissing Isis for a little while made us both giggle. It will go nowhere beyond that. We just care about each other. Her kisses are like John's holding of my hand while I cried the other day.

It is so nice to receive love from so many sources, and not have it have to be sexual. So nice. Mind-blowing, actually. These people are my friends. I love them from the bottom of my heart. The obstacles recently presented in my life have given me awesome opportunities to feel so much more love. It's nice. I could have gone the other way...I could have let what happened Wednesday make me hate. Love is so much nicer. The true kind. The kind that doesn't have to involve ejaculation, unless both want it. This is bliss. This is peace. This is a highpoint.

My father and my friend Rick have been there helping to pay the medical bills, and holding my hand while I walked through fire a few weeks ago. Then Bob, Mike, John and Joe were there to hold my hand when I was violated. And Isis, Moon, Jessica (whose own misery I have tried to ease...), Ashley and Katie have been the kind of girlfriends I'd always wished for, even if sometimes I am a bit hard on them. And here is null, true to form, engaging in witty pager banter...listening to me rapture on about how absolutely wonderful this batch of rice pudding made with only a half-cup of Kalijiri rice is, and how the rice is from Bengal, and how some spiritual teacher, upon hearing that his visit to Tibet might be peppered with only kind, loving people, was worried that he might not have an opportunity to practice loving-kindness toward the assholes in the world, so he brought the most annoying person he knew. His Bengali tea boy. Heh.

I was just rambling on and on, and there's null, being his wonderful self, and writing back funny stuff, and helpful stuff, until he had to go get a kebab. I think I shall think of anyone who is annoying in a moderate or severe way as my Bengali tea boy. But that means that even those I love (because they can all be annoying at times, just like I can...) are my Bengali tea boys. This learning to love everybody thing has it's high points and it's funny points. This is one of them. I think it was something in the rice pudding. I'll have to tell Chef Jeff, who loves the movie: "Like Water for Chocolate" just as much as I do.

My mind is made up...not like my bed, which is a mess.

My older sister's favorite gem is an amethyst, in part cause her birthday is in Feb., and partly cause it's purple.

It's interesting to know the qualities it is said to possess. For example:

also bestows stability, strength, invigoration, and peace

. All of these are qualities that she could use some help with.

I'll have to make it a point to get her one.

:)

The Cranesbill--a surprising pick by Emmet.

I'll have to make it a point to get her one

Yeah! Amethyst stones are dope! I've had one in my navel since I pierced it in 2003...I got it not only because I like amethyst, but because I though it would be cool to have my mother's birthstone in the very spot where the umbilical cord used to be that connected me to her. I personally think it would be neat if everyone had their mother's gemstone in their navels...men too. Yay for piercings!

Speaking of piercings....{tangent warning!!!}....a friend of mine who has a Prince Albert and an ampallang? set off the airport metal detector, and he said the officer was gay, but balked when my friend offered to show him the jewelery. How sweet. :-)

At any rate, he was walking on my elevator the otherday to come up and help me take more "stuff" to Goodwill, and when the elevator door tried to close, it stopped for him. This is odd, because the elevator in my building will literally crush you, squash you like a bug, or a sandwich that got sat on, if you even think of standing in the doorway without a huge chunk of metal, such as a shopping cart with you. Oh yeah, of course it freaking stops for the shopping cart, but not human flesh. Damn door. ;D And yet, my friend....well, you know, walk softly.....carry a stick decorated with metal and gems. Hahhuahhahahahaha! I just think I'm so funny, don't I? Hey, if you can't entertain yourself, how can you entertain anyone else? *does a little dance*

Dum, de dum da dum.... So, back to what I was saying earlier-- if the amethyst does what we have both noted it to do, and bestows stability, strength, invigoration and peace, then I'd hate to think what my fate would be right now if I had not pierced my navel back in 2003 with an amethyst setting. But then again, because it took so long to heal, for the first time in my life I had a belly with no six-pack...which felt really wierd. It didn't feel like me...but I digress again. *sighs*

Point being, this nice little rock that Moon gave me (aside: "moonrocks", heh, he...) is just 'heating' up the apartment nicely with all kinda good vibes. I remember reading in Paramahansa Yogananda's "Autobiography of a Yogi" that his master, Sri Yukteswar told him to get an astrological bangle. When he asked his master why he would need such a thing, Sri Yukteswar replied that when he was further down the path he would have no need of such things, but for right now he did. He predicted that his student would get cholera, and he did.

So, I figure, whatever works. My place is gridded with crystals. I used to have "night terrors" where I would wake up feeling as if someone was in bed with me, and when I gridded the place, those nightmares just stopped. I periodically smudge the place with Indian sage too. I find it necessary. And I don't care if some people think it might be 'placebo effect'....because if it's working, it's working. But I personally, believe in the power of crystals. I'll just go on wearing my amethyst navel piercing, and my amethyst, ametrine and citrine necklace. When and if the necklace ever breaks, that just means that I've worked through an emotional or mental blockage. I hear that in India it is symbolic of the breaking of old karma. Wish that it breaks for me...and I hope you get a nice amethyst for your sis' .

My mind is made up...not like my bed, which is a mess.