Reading lightyears's journal

I am misrable
i look after my mum who is sick (man plans and g-d laughs)
i thought i would do something nice for her so i took her shopping in the busy london capital
for some reason she thought it would be realy very amusing to not bother following me (she rides on her scooter) i turn around and shes gone, there i was in the midle of one of the busyest streets freezing to death searching for mum.
In the end i had to phone the police, they took the details then we set of in opposit directions to look for her.
I found her in the end in one of the malls
im tired of being the carer, im tierd of every thing going wrong
im just tired
what makes things worse is im not well my self, im not eating properly im not sleeping proplly
every thing just seems so overwhelming